I laugh in the face of diets and exercise bwahahaha!
I am 34 years old and have been a binge eater with emotional issues as far back as I can remember, which is fairly early childhood. I used to be quite good at losing weight, 15 to 25kg at a time, but I have gained it all back each time plus more! And here I am at my heaviest ever :-p
My dad died of cancer in November 2011. We were very close, and since he died I have really been struggling to want to seriously get my life on track.
I work for the family business (a desk job), from home, and I don't have a driver's licence yet, so I don't get out much, and since I have gained so much weight, and started suffering from GERD (in the form of a persistent, choking cough which has lasted about 7 months), I get out even less. I do whatever I can online. I have been withdrawing further and further, scared to even talk to anyone on the phone lest I start a coughing fit.
Thankfully I have a very loving and supportive family, but I feel unable to interact with them fully in my present state. I want to lose weight and get fit so as not to become a burden to them. I would also dearly love to visit my brother, nephew and niece in the UK, but want to get fit first so that I can enjoy our time together.
I feel that I have lost my spark, lost interest in almost everything that used to interest me, and that I have very little meaningful to add to any conversation.
And so The Spark almost jumped into my arms on an outing to a local book shop. It sat on my side table at first, along with piles of other self help books, promising to change my life for the better, forever, if I could just muster the energy or will power to pick it up.
Well, I picked up The Spark and started reading it a couple of days ago, and I can't put it down (haven't been able to concentrate on a book for ages), and here I am sharing my story and starting to count calories, and hoping that I can unblock my stagnant energy, ignite the spark within and finally lead the life that I am meant to lead, with joy and passion.
I live in South Africa, next door to my in-laws, with my long-time fiance, 2 of my 3 step-kids (aged 15, 17 and 19), 3 pooches and 2 birds. Every other weekend we are blessed to have my mom join our circus (she has a live-in job), and I try to visit my step-mom once a month. I love all my family to bits.
I want to lose 63kg/147lb
I have only just joined Spark People, I have bought a pedometer, and I am starting to take stock of what I eat every day...
I live in South Africa
I love my family, pets, books, movies, belly dancing, Bollywood, art and all forms of creativity, nature...
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