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"Fitness to me isn't about a crunch or a push up, it's about taking your power back." - Jillian Michaels
During pregnancy, I gained 100pds+! Just to give you an idea... I weighed 120pds pre-preggers and by the time he was born, I was weighing in at 220-230pds! I had REALLY high blood pressure and one doctor told me I had the worst case of edema he had ever seen! Needless to say... my once tight and taut body has become an oasis for stretch marks, flabby skin, and just all-together blah-ness~

I didn't have the confidence or the energy to venture out into the world as the strong mommy warrior I envisioned to be and hoped I would be. Instead I had a long recovery from the unplanned surgery (c-section) and loathed what I had become.

When I was 27 years old I thought I had the whole world figured out... well, maybe just my world. I thought I knew who I was, what I went through and overcame, I thought... and felt like I just knew ME. The package.

After my baby boy was born, I totally lost all sense of who I was and I realized that I no longer possessed the "knowing" of what in essence was me. I was a new person. Reborn. I was a mommy now. Although I loved this child that came from my womb, I resented the fact that in return, I received things that I did want more of... scars, stretch marks, fat, serious responsibilities...

Now two years has passed and I am coming to terms with the new identity I've had to establish in being the mother to my child and I am happy to say... I do in fact love myself again... okay, maybe just like. I still struggle with issues that I've struggled with all my life. Weight issues, insecurities... aarrrggghhh! One day I WILL overcome.
I want to L-O-V-E myself again!!
Weight Tracker:
04/14/2010: 145lbs
04/28/2010: 135lbs
05/12/2010: 131lbs
05/28/2010: 126lbs!!
06/09/2010: 125lbs
07/28/2010: SOLID 125lbs
11/03/2010: 131lbs

11/06: With my recent "hibernation" & total burn out, I took a couple months away from healthy, "clean" eating and working out... I essentially "lost my groove" but after feeling totally sick and depressed... I've decided I need to go back to healthy eating and this time not deprive myself as much as I did the first time around...

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* Love myself DAILY

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    2778 days ago

    Greetings from a fellow East Bayer. I think your story is very motivating and impressive. I am probably where you started so I have a loooong way to go but seeing your progress makes me think I can do it too. Check your SP mail.

    2818 days ago
    Hi! I saw a comment you made on a post and it led me to your spark page. I can SOOOOO totally relate to your journey as far as being pretty thin pre-preggers and gaining a LOT during pregnancy. I did the same thing. I sort of gave myself the go-ahead to eat anything and everything in sight. And then some! You are totally right though about needing to LOVE yourself enough to treat yourself and your body wisely. I can see you have made a lot of progress - keep on going!
    2821 days ago
    Welcome to the EE Team. Glad you have joined us.
    2833 days ago
    Hi new Spark Friend. emoticon
    Thanks for adding me. I just added you, too. I know how it feels when you've got 100 lbs to lose. You have done awesome!
    You've also got a great sense of humor, so you'll get there soon.
    emoticon Good luck!
    2861 days ago
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