"Fitness to me isn't about a crunch or a push up, it's about taking your power back." - Jillian Michaels
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During pregnancy, I gained 100pds+! Just to give you an idea... I weighed 120pds pre-preggers and by the time he was born, I was weighing in at 220-230pds! I had REALLY high blood pressure and one doctor told me I had the worst case of edema he had ever seen! Needless to say... my once tight and taut body has become an oasis for stretch marks, flabby skin, and just ...

"Fitness to me isn't about a crunch or a push up, it's about taking your power back." - Jillian Michaels
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During pregnancy, I gained 100pds+! Just to give you an idea... I weighed 120pds pre-preggers and by the time he was born, I was weighing in at 220-230pds! I had REALLY high blood pressure and one doctor told me I had the worst case of edema he had ever seen! Needless to say... my once tight and taut body has become an oasis for stretch marks, flabby skin, and just all-together blah-ness~

I didn't have the confidence or the energy to venture out into the world as the strong mommy warrior I envisioned to be and hoped I would be. Instead I had a long recovery from the unplanned surgery (c-section) and loathed what I had become.

When I was 27 years old I thought I had the whole world figured out... well, maybe just my world. I thought I knew who I was, what I went through and overcame, I thought... and felt like I just knew ME. The package.

After my baby boy was born, I totally lost all sense of who I was and I realized that I no longer possessed the "knowing" of what in essence was me. I was a new person. Reborn. I was a mommy now. Although I loved this child that came from my womb, I resented the fact that in return, I received things that I did want more of... scars, stretch marks, fat, serious responsibilities...

Now two years has passed and I am coming to terms with the new identity I've had to establish in being the mother to my child and I am happy to say... I do in fact love myself again... okay, maybe just like. I still struggle with issues that I've struggled with all my life. Weight issues, insecurities... aarrrggghhh! One day I WILL overcome.
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I want to L-O-V-E myself again!!
NO MORE EXCUSES.
Weight Tracker:
04/14/2010: 145lbs
04/28/2010: 135lbs
05/12/2010: 131lbs
05/28/2010: 126lbs!!
06/09/2010: 125lbs
07/28/2010: SOLID 125lbs
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11/03/2010: 131lbs

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11/06: With my recent "hibernation" & total burn out, I took a couple months away from healthy, "clean" eating and working out... I essentially "lost my groove" but after feeling totally sick and depressed... I've decided I need to go back to healthy eating and this time not deprive myself as much as I did the first time around...

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