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Round 2 Day 01
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I'm very honest, so if you're on my page actually reading this, you may as well know that from the start :D
I have struggled with my weight my entire life. Looking back, many of the poor decisions I've made were due to my very low self-esteem. I've never had a drop of self-confidence. To be straightfoward about it, I've never in my life felt as if I belonged here or mattered.
Since last year, I've learned to value myself as a person a lot! Despite this, I still have low self-esteem to a degree, and I firmly believe it's keeping me from being everything I want to be. The low self-esteem is due to my being overweight. So guess what I did on a tiny budget? Bought p90x and the necessary workout equipment!
As I waited for it to arrive, I fasted for a few days, and the LORD showed me that I was addicted to food; whenever I was feeling blue the first thing I did was reach for some unhealthy junk and I never cared about caloric intake and whatnot... and don't let me begin to tell you how absolutely depressed and unmotivated I was to get off my bum and work out... but that is no longer the case!
Since this year began, I have been mindful of drinking 8 or more glasses of water daily. As a former Pepsi addict (I was sucking back 5 or 6 cans a day! :-O), I saved a couple of my old bottles and filled them with water, and it became an easy way for me to get used to drinking the H20! If I REALLY have to have a sweet drink, I just go for juice and green tea, too. And I feel better for it! I believe I even dropped some pounds just by doing that!
I'm not getting any younger and there are so many things I want to be able to do, so many clothes I want to be able to wear and look good in without being conscious of my body. So I've started p90x (after being inspired by a friend of a friend, admittedly) and I love the pain! The pain is just a badge of change, the 'big girl' caterpillar beginning her metamorphosis into the fit, fine butterfly she's always wanted to be :D
So I'm doing it for me. No more listening to people who don't want me to be the best I can be... It's about what I want now, and I will know what it's like to be physically fit, with self-confidence that reaches beyond the stratosphere. I know I deserve it, and it's been 30 years coming!
I'm pushing play... for me!
I will not stop until I can wear a size 12 again! Quitting cigarettes is hard... but I'm still trying! Instead of being mad at myself for ever starting, I'll choose to focus that energy on quitting!
ROUND 2 of P90X has begun! Accountability is a necessity!
I work best when I stick to something faithfully; I will not grow the least bit complacent!
I finally had to learn to love myself enough to do this. Not doing it for anyone else; I'm being selfish for happiness for myself!
I can do it! I put my mind to it, and I pray that GOD helps me stay focused and aware and motivated.
I'm counting the Victory! I proved to myself that I could stick with something for more than a month! To succeed, I must maintain no matter what! I want to be fit for the rest of my life!
My hobbies include drawing, writing, reading, and I LOVE LOVE LOVE dancing~! One day I'd love to study some form of martial arts... tae kwon do, krav maga, or maybe even kung fu!
| current weight: 225.0