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I am finally back, after 6 unsuccessful monthsof no weight loss, but full of work and stressful events.
I am Eilean, 31 years old and I am fed up with being fat. I have tried so many diets, counting calories and nothing works. I have to blame myself, I give up too easily. I have just come back from a holiday and saw the pictures and I can't believe that I even fit on them! Something has to change and I am back to start a second attempt on SparkPeople. Hopefully with more success this time.
I had my first diet when I was ten, when my mother bought a dress for me which just would not fit, it was nearly two sizes two small. Since my mother did not want to give the dress back, she put me on a diet. Tea and soured cream, crisp bread and cucumber for 4 weeks. It was an utter nightmare and although I managed to fit into the dress at that time, I later gained all the weight back and more.
I have been told that I am fat all my life, from my school mates, teachers, parents but to be fair I wasn't a particularly big child. My older sister was tall and slim and a top model would have looked fat next to her. My partner would have called her a stick insect, not nice but he isn't wrong (no worries though, she looks stunning today, she was just one of them very slim kids). Well, so I was the fat little girl, not pretty and certainly not what my parents had hoped for. And although I get along very well with both of them today and I do love them to bits, the constant nagging about me being fat is still lingering deep inside of me.
The during puberty I got to the point when I thought I am fat anyway, so what the heck, it doesn't matter anymore anyway and started to eat whatever I liked and too much of it, too.
At the age of 19 I was about 130 kg and managed to get down to 115 kg. In the last year I managed to get down to 106 kg but reached a plateau and gave up. Back at 115 kg now I want to give it another try, with the support of my twin sister and my beloved partner Paul who loves me just the way I am. When we met I was 121 kg and he loved it. But he understands why I want to lose weight, why I want to be slim and attractive and more importantly healthy.
I am glad to have found this site and I am looking forward to losing weight and to getting to know the SparkPeople out there :) .
1st goal: 115 kg
2nd goal: 110 kg
3rd goal: 105 kg
4th goal: 100 kg
5th goal: 95 kg
6th goal: 90 kg
7th goal: 85 kg
8th goal: 80 kg
9th and FINAL GOAL: 75 kg
Respectively a UK size 12 whatever comes first.
Exercise whenever I can, matching my physical abilities.
Born in Germany, moved to the UK a couple of years ago. Living with my partner Paul.
I like all sort of music, from Heavy Metal to Rock, 80's Pop and more.
I read factual books rather than fictional books.
I like all sorts of films, except horror and war films.
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Hi Eilean, are you still around? Hope you're doing well.
2240 days ago
hope you're feeling better today. thanks for the info on the virtual image site. i was able to make a before image but can't figure out how to bring it over here. i am so computer illiterate-lol.
2279 days ago
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¸.♥´ .´¨¨ ¸´¸.´¨Welcome to the EE team!!
Ive belonged to a lot of teams here on spark-- i really do believe that the Emotional Eaters team is one of the very best, its a great group of people- very supportive and encouraging-- and it is very refreshing to talk with people who "get" what you're going through!! ¸¸.¨¸♥¨`*,¸.*´¨`* .¸♥.*¸.´¸.*¨¸.*¨¸.´¸.*¨) ¸.*¨)
Check out the main page of the EE team- there are stickied topics you may be interested in to get involved- a buddy thread, a place to introduce yourself, weigh-in challenge, a birthday post. ¸.*¨¸.´¸.*¨(¸.´ (¸.´ (¸.´¸¸.¨¸♥¨`*,¸.*´¨`* .¸♥. ¸.♥´ .´¨¨ ¸´¸.´¸.*¨)¸¸.´ ..-~'¸.*¨)
Spark has a lot of great tools, and you will learn which ones work best for you. The best tools are the people tho, always willing to lend a hand, an ear, or a shoulder. Ive been here for over a year now, and I still am overwhelmed, every day, by the kindness and goodness of others on this team!! That has made a world of difference for me. I hope you have the same success! ¸¸.¨¸♥¨`*,¸.*´¨`* .¸♥.*.*¨¸.´¸.*
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You are- WONDERFUL-cuz youre you!!! BELIEVE IT!!! operationbeautiful-- END THE FAT TALK!!! ¸.*¨¸.´¸.*¨(¸.´ (¸.´(¸.´¸¸.¨¸♥¨`*,¸.*´¨`* .¸♥.
(¸.¸.*´¨`* .¸♥. ~~best of luck to you on all of your goals!!! (¸.¸.*´¨`* .¸♥.
2282 days ago
to the Emotional Eaters Team!
You can do it!!!
2283 days ago
Welcome to the Emotional Eaters team. Have a great week. Take some time for yourself.
2284 days ago