This is a bit different than the online sites I usually get on, but at least this one is going to help build me up an not just catch up with ole friends. I have been fighting my weight ever since I can remember. I was a high school football player and went to college on a military scholarship. I went from nearly 300 pounds, down to 215 and I felt like a whole new man. But when our PT instructor took another assignment and was replaced by one with totally different methods, my weight loss not only stopped, but wen tinto reverse. I began to get injured on a monthly basis and was restricted from certain excercises. I eventually lost my scholarship in part because I couldn't maintain the height weight standards after sustaining so many injuries due to weak joints and broken bones. The other reason was due to a growing negative attitude.
I still wanted to keep in shape and did so even after leaving the program, but the pounds started to creep back on. After graduating college, I later tried going enlisted a few times with a few different service branches and they all told me I was too big to go to boot camp. Wow, how big do you have to be to go to boot campt where everybody loses nearly 60 -70 lbs?!?! So in order to become eligible, I did every diet you have ever heard of and a few combinations for something new. Some worked, but not for long, and with the growing failures so grew my frustration. I worked out at home in the mornings and after work, as well as for a full hour at the gym at my job. (I worked on a training facility for police and military personnel) But I got laid off, and the pounds got laid back on. I soon gave up trying for the military and my motivation was gone.
I am only 28 but, I feel horrible about being this big again and too out of shape to enjoy life. I have never looked my actual weight, mainly because of my natural build and height, but now I am feeling it. Now, i have a great job, but in an office with a cushy seat and no real need to move around at all. I get winded bending down to tie my own shoes for too long or a quick run from the car to the mailbox. The worst was when I stepped on the shipping scale in my office and it totalled out at 340lbs. I knew I needed to cut down and get back in the gym but OMG! Now it's not about trying to get into a uniform, it's about trying to get into a pair of jeans off the rack at a regular clothing store and not passing out from sucking in my gut. The truth of it is that I have been showing signs of diabetes, and honestly do not want to run into the same health issues that have taken the lives and livlihood form many of my family members.
I have failed at an d quit a many things in the past, but I will not lose my life because of myself and my unhealthy lifestyle. Hopefully, this will help me establish a healthy lifestyle and keep it.
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| current weight: 236.0