This was the smallest I had ever been. I know my underwear is showing, but whatever, it's the equiva
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"Whatever the goal we're pursuing, no matter how rugged the climb, we're certain to get there by trying our best, and taking it one day at a time. "Forever" is hard to imagine, "the future" may seem far away - but every new dawn brings a wonderful chance to do what we can on that day" - Emily Matthews
It's never too late to make a change in your life for the better. It doesn't matter where you are now, as long as you're willing to try your best and make the necessary changes in your life. Sometimes it takes little things like drinking a little more water, and a little less soda; sometimes it's big things like cutting some negative people from your life who just bring you down. But whatever the case may be, never deny yourself the joy you deserve, wherever that may come from - losing weight, being healthy, toning up, etc.
I had always lived my life for other people. I suffered for years with anorexic ideations, wishing I could be like "them", but it was never because I thought that was right, rather because I was brainwashed into believing that's what would make others "like me more". I wanted to lose weight for my parents, so they'd stop lecturining me; my old bullies, to "show them up"; and my ex (or any guy I was romantically interested in) because I was always scared they'd leave me for someone skinny. This has ended.
Though I've had those moments where I go back and fourth - thinking I'm doing it for myself when subconsciously I'm still doing it for others - I've been single for more than a year with no romantic interests, and thanks to my self-imposed single-life, I've learned to be happy being on my own. With this new-found comfort in my own company, and learning that I don't need the approval or complements of a boyfriend to be happy, I've realized that I want to shed my past and start a new, clean future - for ME and NO ONE else :)
With the pressures of losing weight for others lifted off my shoulders I feel more inclined to succeed than I ever have before.
I'm here because I'm graduating in about 4 months, and I'm hoping to move to a new city. In any case, after graduation a new aspect of my life will begin and I would like to make changes in every aspect of my life, physique included.
I've been struggling with my weight for as long as I can remember, and I think one of the biggest reasons why I never really stuck to my success was my lack of support. Losing has never been an issue for me, it's keeping it off that was the problem. I've been going at this game for a long time, and I know every thing that works, and doesn't work, for me. Let's see what happens when I add this element to it :)
"Do the things you used to talk about but never did. Know when to let go and when to hold on tight. Stop rushing. Don't be intimidated to say it like it is. Stop apologizing all the time. Learn to say no, so your yes has some oomph. Spend time with friends who LIFT YOU UP, and CUT LOOSE the ones who BRING YOU DOWN. Stop giving your power away. Be more concerned with being interested than being interesting. Be old enough to appreciate your freedom, and young enough to enjoy it. FINALLY KNOW WHO YOU ARE!" - Kristin Armstrong
- Graduate with Honors
- Work in NYC
- stop tearing and picking at my nails when I get nervous
189 - 13/02/2011 - Merrrr...
179 - Spa day
169 - Coach wallet
159 - New shoes
149 - Workout Sandbag
139 - Dip station
129 - New shoes (haha)
119 - Shopping spree!
Finish P90X Lean Schedule
Manage to do the Fat Assassin Workout from Bodyrock.tv
See Goals :)
I also do jogging, walking, cycling or dancing depending on how I feel that day.
| current weight: 189.0