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Depressed and worthless with no real reason to live.

Over the past few years I've had several surgeries including both a knee and shoulder replacement.

Last year I was married, but it only lasted three months. My husband raped me the night I came home after my knee replacement. He waited until my sleeping pills and pain killers kicked in and I couldn't fight him off. The next day I kicked him out and started divorce proceedings. The divorce is now final and he is in jail until November.

My best friend, Scott, also ...
Over the past few years I've had several surgeries including both a knee and shoulder replacement.

Last year I was married, but it only lasted three months. My husband raped me the night I came home after my knee replacement. He waited until my sleeping pills and pain killers kicked in and I couldn't fight him off. The next day I kicked him out and started divorce proceedings. The divorce is now final and he is in jail until November.

My best friend, Scott, also filed for divorce. His wife tried to kill him twice. When he filed for divorce, we were talking and realized that we were both in love with each other all along, but neither one of us wanted to cause the break up of the other. All four of us met at the same time and it seems that we paired up wrong. If only we said something then, we wouldn't have had to go through this.

Three weeks ago I had sent a text to Scott to see when his visiting nurse was coming the next day (he was learning how to walk again after being paralized). The next day would have been my wedding anniversary and I didn't want to spend it alone. Two hours later, my father received a call from his mother-in-law that Scott had died. They didn't call to tell me they took him to the hospital, so I never got to say goodbye. They had him cremated before the funeral... the cheapest way possible, in a sheet... so I didn't get to say goodbye to him then either. His mother-in-law and soon to be ex were laughing and joking around at his funeral like it was a circus. I think they were happy he died before the divorce papers came through because now they will inherit his million dollar + estate. Scott told me he had a will, but they claim they don't know anything about it. I think they are just trying to hide it because they know they were no longer in it. Scott had told me he had it changed.

Right now, I'm just trying to get by hour after hour. I wish I would stop crying, but I can't. I keep thinking how life would be better for everyone around me if I just wasn't here any more.

It's true when they say that when your are in your greatest need you find out who your real friends are. I have none. None of my friends will talk to me any more. They are ignoring all phone calls and texts.

I guess I'm truly on my own now.
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Member Since: 11/4/2009

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To find a way to live until tomorrow.

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Depressed, worthless, friendless and unwanted.

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44 years old, trying to get over the death of my fiancee, hoping to find some true friends that won't leave me at the first sign that I might need them for some strength.

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7/17/2014 7:34:42 AM

You have a friend . I hope things will get better they usually do. emoticon



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