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Well Jan 3rd 2017 - another year gone. The good thing is I am the same weight I was when I moved in this house 11 years ago. The bad is I lost all I wanted to lose and then gained it back. Far from obese and living in the normal range for my height and age. I still want the skinny.

Retiring early in life is both a blessing and a curse. Although I am very active you still have a lot of downtime that you did not have before. When I say that I mostly mean of the mind and some of the body. You somewhat escape yourself in your work and the fight we fight on this journey gets shelved a bit instead of always being in th forefront.

Not that you are not still on your game it just is not consuming every waking moment. After all you can not be troubleshooting a design error in a software release and be worried about dinner and calories.

It's a break.

Now don't get me wrong I don't want to go back to work I just used it as my example as a use for mentally breaking away from the grind.

So we find other ways as we move through.

For me my goal is always in sight. But I have changed it a bit. Instead of shooting for number on the scale I am looking at engaging my thoughts in a healthy direction both physically and mentally and was passes by my lips.

Everything else will follow

I updated my spark page this morning and thought I would add to the value by making it a blog as well. After all we need to squeeze all we can out of our hard work here.

December - 22th - 2016

Just finish Christmas shopping. That is very close for me. Usually I'm done long before. Whew!

So the quick and dirty. I'm back in full force. Got my head straight (for now) Starting a new team with an old friend here with hopes of making it great! The drive and ambition is their and we are both hoping for volumes of participation.

You know, I have been here for many years and have tried many ways to be better, healthier, and happier. Some have worked and some have not. But, I never quit. One of the biggest mistakes anyone can make here is to try and do it alone. Tried it doesn't work.

Weight loss is a great goal to have. A healthy weight could possible change your health. But it is not the answer to the internal you. Neither am I. It lies within and needs to be searched and discovered. Others can help us but, we need to do the work. Remember this is as much a mental game as it is physical.

I did some very deep exploration most recently and found many things about me that I like and dislike. I dug up some stuff that possibly was better left behind, but for some reason I felt I needed to look at it. I won't bore you here with great detail but I will tell you we all have our demons and they do need to me addressed.

Time seems to move more quickly now and I decided to break from the writings of internal struggles with ghosts of the past and place focus on today try to live in the moment. The past will see me again soon as I dig further into who I am.

None of this exploration although some can be painful is meant as a means of self destruction. It is only meant to better me so I care share more good with those most dear to me be it human or not, dead or alive.

Be back with more later

Quickly - Took over a team that was up for grabs just a day or two ago. Thinking of starting a new team with a friend I made here a while back. Still working it no matter the hurdle. Stay tuned. If that new team emerges it is going to be a great place to hange out and achieve your goals.

November 7th 2016

I just reread my post from back in May and I'm glad that I did. After rereading it I've come to realize my priorities were Backwards. I didn't need to fix the weight that I gained first I needed to address the issues in my life. Those stresses that will cause me to go off the edge causing me to eat and causing me not to think straight anymore. I stopped worrying about putting down the fork and pick up the pen instead and started putting down on paper what was truly eating me up inside. How I viewed certain things and people and life in general. And how it impacted my life. Those writings helped me continue on. They slowly started to open my eyes to what needed to be addressed first. What dragged me down. And how I could pick myself back up. One thing I can say is I've never left, I'm always trying, and I'm always always always putting one foot in front of the other. I will win again.

Making use of the coaching - just started today. Also posted in the "guys"; lounge for the first time. And I"ve been here a while.

August 19th 2016

Baby stepping and soul searching all the way to a better me


May 31st - 2016

As I sit here on my back deck this 31st day of May 2016 I ponder how I have come full circle travelling the road of weight loss, better health, and healthy choices.

When I started this journey back in 2012 I made a commitment to myself to quit all tobacco products and to lose weight at the same time. This of course involved many choices that were not part of me in past times. My needs and wants meant choosing better foods, filtering out relationships, and extreme focus on the goal complimented with a serious amount of will power.

I hit my goal and proudly participated in a team here for those who made it to goal and were maintaining or transitioning to maintenance. I was so proud to be there, So proud to be a success that when I started to slip here and there I feared the worst. The worst of course would be returning to the beginning.

Well you can call me a self fulfilling prophecy because that is exactly what has happened over the past 2.5 years. Some of it was slow and at other times it was a freight train.

I think for me I lost a few things that I thought held me up through the journey?

One - the perception that what I was doing in regards to foods was for a healthier me and started viewing it as RESTRICTION.

My support system changed, my team fell apart tripping up the goals right along with it.

Negative feedback from those you thought would support you and be proud of your accomplishments.

Negativity from family and co-workers about my success.

Getting older and suffering knee injuries from too much use and abuse.

Psychological stress creating physical stress creating rule breaking eating to cover up those stresses. I don't drink, drug, or smoke so for me food became the end of day glass of wine and a good cigar that others may indulge in to relieve a little stress.

I could continue to add to this list and I could surely point to other events in my life or "in life" that seem to be unfair and are constantly testing the will of the good.

I won't because it is not my goal to cry on any shoulder here.

My goal is to explain. Get it out on paper (or screen) get out the truth. And set the stage for my return to goal.

I have a lot to work on other than weight and healthy eating. But, for me I need to start with me and lose the weight I I I I I want to lose. Get my focus on foods back to a happy place where as much of what goes in is healthy and good for your body.

With some of the physical restrictions that have creeped in as the clock of life ticks away it has become a strong message from myself to get a hold real quick. I sit here at 57.5 years of age thinking I'm 30 and can still do what a 30 year old can do. Not the case. I do however get around better than a lot of folks my age. I just want to stop father time and be as I am today and no worse off for the next 20 to 30 years. Well maybe a little worse off is okay?

So statistically I guess I am a statistic. I have come full circle and humble myself. The work I have to do over the next six months is huge but obtainable. I will endure, I will succeed. I will fix me, and then move out to fix or at least put to rest some of the major stressors that have negatively impacted my mind and body.

I have been on this weight roller coaster ride since my late teens. Up, down, up, down, up over and over. I could be on the show "Fit2Fat2Fit" If it were "Fat2Fit2Fat" At least what I perceive as fat for me. I might win the award for the most weight gained and lost over the past 40 years and most weight lifted without really changing my appearance long term.

Slap, Slap, Slap -- Yes that is me waking myself up so I can get on with getting on.

Time to change the mind so the body will follow and this update is just that place holder for a big and powerful new start.

If I learn from this -- Bravo for me. If you learn from this then Bravo for me for sharing and to you for reading to the end.

If you do not live to learn then you have not lived.



Big advances lately. Put stupid in the rear view and the pedal down. No room left for silly things. If it does not benefit then it's time to ditch it. Never quitting and always moving towards a better me. I'll never quit. Now that's something to live by.


Remember - Life is what you allow it to be. We all make choices. Choices produce a return. Bad choices produce a bad return. Good produces good. Remember!


Smoke em if you got em..... Calories that is..... ;-)

Moving into fall. Attitude positive, program in place, plan set, exercise good to go. Bring it on I''''m ready!


September 2nd 2015 and I''''m modifying, learning, and continuing this journey New blog post, New team, New challenges. Doing what it takes to do it. That''''s the game so call me a player because I am far from a quitter.


August 16th 2015 - Not sure where most of this year went. I am still here and I am still pushing for better. Push it takes work but you''''re worth it as I am.


JUNE 4th 2015 -
100 days done - 1st challenge complete.


Day 65 down 35 to go of the 100 day challenge
Start Date - 02/25/15 - End Date 06/04/14
25 Push-ups per day for 100 days


Determined not to fail.
Updates reside in the blog -- 02/21/15


As I sit here all foggy, head hurting, feeling terrible, and with puffy eye�s from abusing myself with bad food choices through Christmas and right up to last night -- I have decided to come clean and hit the reset button
I started by pulling myself from certain teams here in Spark land and stopping the lie. I�m returning to basics and back to yesterday�s way of thinking and yesterday�s way of working what I call �the program�. And again as I have in the past I seek the help of a power greater than myself who I choose to call God. I ask to be better to myself and others around me. I ask to be strong once again as I was in the past when I walked with Him and allowed to a share my experience with other so they may grow as well. I ask to be strong for others, wise and knowledgeable, a teacher of sorts. A teacher by example showing others the way to progress and good health by way of the program. I ask to �Be Better�
The Truth of the year 2014 --------
I failed myself.
Somehow, somewhere too much became too much. Too much education, too much restriction, too much heartache, too much weight loss, too much responsibility, too much calorie counting, too much restaurant worry, too much exercise, too much insanity, too many recipes, too much shopping, too much cooking, too much planning, too much thought, too much of just too much ---- basically just TOO MUCH! To quote from elsewhere �My Life Became Unmanageable� in the area of diet and exercise.
So today being 12/29/14 I hit the reset button. As I washed my face this morning I did not like the person I saw in the mirror. I do not like the way I feel and I do not like the way that I look and fit in my clothes I was so happy to buy the smaller sizes when I hit goal. I just cannot continue in this negative direction
The goal is to be able to again post the original message below at the top of this page. The date I set is June 30th 2015. The weight I set may be a pipe dream. But the health goal is not. I set rewards for myself that are not food related and expect to get to them in the time frame set. My personality dictates success. My mouth and the demons that drive food cravings and bad choices will try to make me fail. This is unacceptable for me and will be met with great drive and determination. Failure is not an option.

Join me. For where I go is �Better�

-DC � 12/29/14


I''''ve been on this weight loss journey since February 2012 and I have lost 50 pounds, went down four pant sizes, and from a medium / large shirt to a small. Am I thrilled -- Yes I am.

I''''m male 56 years old. I do believe I am in the best shape of my life. I lost the weight, changed my diet, built lean muscle, and feel so much better for it.

Since June of 2012 I have been a FatSecret member. Now I need more and that brings me to SparkPeople. Impressive this site is.
I exercise daily, cardio or HIIT training three times a week and on opposite days strength / weight training three times a week with stretching and calisthenics every day. Drive is not my problem. My exercise program was a little more involved when I was dropping the weight. Now that I am trying to maintain I am trying to modify my training to satisfy accordingly. Believe me it was easier when dropping vs trying to maintain your goal weight

I no longer use any tobacco products of any kind (and still managed to lose weight not gain) -- Yahoo --- It''''s has been over a year now last April. I do not drink and have not for 20 years, and I am not a gambler. So my only vice is food and sweets and as for sweets I took them completely out of my diet to be on my diet. And only most recently allow myself a cheat here or there.

So now I am in maintenance mode which is really harder than weight loss mode. At least for me it seems to be that way. I''''m much better off telling myself I still have a couple of pounds to go to reach my goal weight to make it easier on myself.

Since getting serious about dieting, health and nutrition, I have never felt or looked better.

Websites and communities Like SparkPeople have helped me get better at weight loss, get serious about nutrition, and take a good look at who I am and where I want to go in this last leg of life.

I''''m thankful to have these tools at my disposal and appreciate the community and all the hard work the programmers do that comes with building and maintaining a site like this.


Member Since: 2/6/2013

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To live life to the best of my ability.

To educate myself in life's lessons and to learn from the very same.

To grow both spiritually and be more.

To feed my body properly as it was designed.

To exercise well and be strong and fit.

To prevent preventable diseases by being more to me by doing the above.

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Diet, exercise and eating heart healthy. And let's not forget a LOT of hard work.

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