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Alive In The World!

Seven years with SparkPeople! What an amazing virtual "home" and support network my SparkFamily has been! I am finding that even at 50+ years of age, I'm still working on finding who I am...! It's such a process. A few years ago I came across a song others here at SparkPeople might appreciate. As I listened to it I was overwhelmed with grief and excitement all at once: it captured my ongoing struggles so WELL! The parts of me that I've held back throughout my life, yet freeing so much potential ...
Seven years with SparkPeople! What an amazing virtual "home" and support network my SparkFamily has been! I am finding that even at 50+ years of age, I'm still working on finding who I am...! It's such a process. A few years ago I came across a song others here at SparkPeople might appreciate. As I listened to it I was overwhelmed with grief and excitement all at once: it captured my ongoing struggles so WELL! The parts of me that I've held back throughout my life, yet freeing so much potential NOW in my life for doing things that either were not possible before or that I would not allow myself to do.

Somebody actually KNEW what I was going through!

Without my weight, both literal and psychological, it's time for me to realize that it is truly safe to come out into the world and be as genuine and true to myself as I can. I've always so heavily censored myself in the past, especially the more child-like, fun-loving, spontaneous part of myself. Always out of poor self-esteem...fat boys can't be carefree, must always be on the lookout for ways to be acceptable to others! Because I certainly wasn't acceptable just as I was, without conditions...

My savings grace was that there was always a voice inside that held onto all the experiences I wouldn't allow myself to express. As a child, when I spent my summers living a block away from Lake Michigan, I used to LIVE in the lake. My weight wasn't a handicap in the water! I would swim for hours at a time, as far out from the shore as I could. Resting while floating on my back, mostly oblivious of the lifeguards and their attempts to whistle me back closer to the shore. I would swim far out beyond the buoys marking the swimming area feeling as free and fun-loving as a child could be. I'm trying my best to re-visit and celebrate this child.

I can't remember when a song has shaken me so much! Really opened my eyes to what I've been working on UNDERNEATH all the weight loss and healthy lifestyle pursuits! It's beginning to dawn on me that so many things I've censored from my life I can now pursue if I choose.

So this song has become my new mantra...beyond losing weight and living a healthy lifestyle, I am going to do my best to be...

Alive In The World
by Jackson Browne, Solo Acoustic Volume 2
http://tinyurl.com/onj7g4

I want to live in the world,
not inside my head
I want to live in the world,
I want to stand and be counted
With the hopeful and the willing
With the open and the strong
With the voices in the darkness
Fashioning daylight out of song
And the millions of lovers
Alive in the world

I want to live in the world,
not behind some wall
I want to live in the world,
where I will hear if another voice should call
To the prisoner inside me
To the captive of my doubt
Who among his fantasies harbors
the dream of breaking out
And taking his chances
Alive in the world

To open my eyes and wake up alive in the world
To open my eyes and fully arrive in the world

With its beauty and its cruelty
With its heartbreak and its joy
With it constantly giving birth to life
and to forces that destroy
And the infinite power of change
Alive in the world

To open my eyes and wake up alive in the world
To open my eyes and fully arrive in the world
To open my eyes and wake up alive in the world
To open my eyes and fully arrive in the world

Here's an Amazon link to download the mp3 of this song for 99 cents!
www.amazon.com/Alive-In-The-World-Album/
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/B0015FSMZE/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&s=dmusi
c&qid=1207778908&sr=1-2
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Member Since: 4/21/2007

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My Goals:
I am making a concerted effort to lose 30 pounds in the next 6 months. I'm tired of "settling" for the mid-200s and want to make a concerted effort to reach a true goal weight of 200 and KEEP IT THERE!

My Program:
Daily cardio workout (usually elliptical or spinning bike) of 30-60 minutes.

When I can get outside and have the time I enjoy Nordic walking / jogging with my Leki Instructor walking poles.

I also love to hit the open road on my bicycle... especially my Specialized Tricross Sport Double! :-)

Strength-building with weights 3x weekly.

Since 01/2014 I have been faithfully tracking my food to help me close in on my goal weight and it has been AMAZINGLY HELPFUL!

Additional changes which I have locked in: 1) zero-sugar, 2) zero-grains and 3) limit my eating to only between the hours of noon to 8-9 pm, thereby creating a daily "fast" during the hours outside of that time frame.

I need to keep my food choices as simple as possible and for the most part my food is fresh veggies with some fruit. For protein I rely on dairy, legumes, nuts and limited quantities of meat...generally lean chicken and tuna.

I love tossing a variety of thi

Personal Information:
My name is Don and I am a clinical social worker from upstate (i.e. rural, NOT the Big Apple!) New York.

I am married and we have one adult son.

Other Information:
The most inspiring moment in a movie for me was in One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest when Chief ripped that sink fixture off the floor, threw it through the window, hopped out and ran into the free world.

For me, that is the PERFECT metaphor for my weight loss!

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TRAVELGRRL
3/20/2015 1:38:57 PM

"There are SO many reasons to love our SparkFamily and to stick around, but one thing that stands out as I hear about all the nasty dynamics that seem to ooze out of the whole Facebook phenomena (I've yet to drink the FB kool-aid) is that the overall attitude between us here at SparkPeople is so SUPPORTIVE, POSITIVE and CONSTRUCTIVE!"

I felt this comment on WATERMELLEN's blog, right after my comment about being more active in a Facebook group, was directed at me. I just wanted to kindly educate you on some of the advantages of a Facebook weight-loss group. For one thing, it is a CLOSED group so anything said on the group page STAYS in the group. There is no way anyone outside of the group can access it, so it is actually more private than anything on Spark.

Also, we are an eclectic group of about 20 women of all ages from all corners of the country. We have group challenges, weekly weigh-ins, a question of the day, etc. Each morning we post something we are grateful for and identify one extra thing we plan to do to support our healthy lifestyle. We are able to offer REAL TIME support because Facebook is organized chronologically on a time line and notifies us immediately when a member posts. We can comment on each other's posts so topics stay together. We are able to post pictures in comments, which we often do. All during the day there are posts of motivating quotes, Non-Scale Victories, pictures of projects completed, healthy meals prepared, etc. etc. etc.

So as you see, you have only "heard" about the negatives of Facebook and have not experienced the SUPPORTIVE, POSITIVE, and CONSTRUCTIVE attitudes that are possible in a closed group. I took offense at the not drinking the Kool-Aid comment and wanted you to see that there can be other alternatives to Sparkpeople that can work just as well, or better, for some people at different points in their journeys. Not one avenue works all the time for everyone. Have a nice day!



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3/20/2015 8:35:11 AM

Adam Smith questioned whether true altruism is even possible: but who cares, a lot of good things get done out of self-interest!!



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3/20/2015 6:57:34 AM

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WATERMELLEN
3/19/2015 6:02:07 PM

YOU are one of the GREAT Spark supporters . . . incredible!! And I'm so much enjoying your zest and enthusiasm!!!



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