Oh, THANK you for articulating what I have felt the past few years. Yes, mourning the person I was and am no more. Wondering if I was ever that woman, or just mimicking runners and fit people. Wondering if I can be her again, because it felt so GOOD to run. And wondering what else there is to be or do if that avenue is no longer open to me.
DH doesn't get it, and he should, since he had to give up soccer (after 30 years of it) due to too many head injuries.
My doc didn't get it and almost literally patted me on the head when I broke down in tears over this issue (needless to say, she is no longer my doctor)
But you get it Donna, and I am grateful. I am also sorry that I have no words of wisdom, and the only comfort I can extend to you is understanding where you are and what it is you are dealing with.
Be well and I hope that you find something to comfort you.
Hi Donna, how are you doing today? I decided I'd lift my left knee to the right elbow and the right to the left 20 X now I can't find what it's called to track it. Good thing is whether it's tracked or not I did it.