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I have been a yo-yo dieter probably all my life and right now, the yo-yo string is in knots and stuck at the highest position ever!
in January of 2003 I weighed 201.8 lbs....yep i remember down to the 10th of the pound. I joined weight watchers and it was even better because I got a discount since i was enrolled at the local university. Well by May of that year I had lost 40 lbs and then I trimmed down 10 more lbs by that next year. I gained a lot of lean muscle and I was too hot to handle! I enjoyed being thin. I was so happy, or so I thought. When I graduated from college, I started working full time. so since May of 2005 I have managed to gain 85 lbs.
Flash forward to today - March 2009..... 4 years later at 235lbs...
wearing a size 18....swollen ankles.....swollen face..... return of asthma symptoms (I have had asthma all my life, but while i was thin i didn't have any issues... now i do).... FEAR!
I have been so afraid about the "what if's"
What if I get diabetes?
What if I gain more weight?
What if I mess up my knees?
What if my boyfriend is no longer attracted to me?
What if I have high cholesterol?
What if I have increased my chances of having a heart attack or a stroke?
What happens if I get pregnant, how will I carry a child when I am already 80+ lbs overweight?!
All of these questions... flooding my head. I am only 26 years old! I should be out partying and enjoying this carefree decade that I have (what's left of it). But no... I don't even like shopping anymore...why... I can't wear the clothes anyway. I have joined,, quit , and rejoined weight watchers 6 times since i moved from my home after graduation to Miami, FL. I finally realized that I was wasting my money. It's an excellent program BUT I need to do this on my own. Besides, it's about lifestyle right?
So here I am (I was also a member of sparkpeople in 2006 under a different name but i needed to start over). I am ready. I have been doing well! I passed the 21 day mark. I keep praying for this to stick.
So I am doing this for me and my future..... I know it's for the better and I can't wait to feel confident and free again.
~~~~~~~~WHO'S WITH ME?~~~~~~~
Goals and Rewards
220 lbs - New pair of athletic shoes (met 5/18/09!)
210 lbs - New item of clothing (met 7/11/09!)
200 lbs - New MP3 player (met 8/30/09!)
190 lbs - mani/pedi/eyebrow wax
180 lbs - New perfume
170 lbs - New pair of heels
160 lbs - Soda Stream Machine
150 lbs - New Victoria's Secret bra and panty set
140 lbs - $600 wardobe shopping spree at Banana Republic
| current weight: 199.4
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YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!
"Procrastination makes easy things hard, hard things harder."~Mason Cooley
"Happiness doesn't depend on any external conditions, it is governed by our mental attitude."~Dale Carnegie
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Poem by Audrey Hepburn
For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others.
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A Great Day
"Today is a great day to be alive. The world is filled with positive possibilities, and those possibilities grow more numerous with each passing moment. Sure, there are challenges and disappointments and frustrations. And within those challenges, within those disappointments, are some of the greatest possibilities.
Today is a great day to be alive because today you can make things happen. You can set a goal, chart a course, take stock of your situation and use it to create new value. Pay no attention to those who claim to know how things will be. Your future is yours to determine, and this is the day to make it great.
You don't need anyone's permission to live with joy and fulfillment. You don't need to wait for certain circumstances to line up in a specific way. For today is a great day to be alive, to be productive, to be effective and to fulfill your best possibilities. And now is the moment to enthusiastically get busy making it all happen."-- Ralph Marston
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"Thousand of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared."-The Buddha
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