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UPDATE 1-6-2014: Well, since I had my gastric sleeve I have lost 130 pounds, but over the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays I have gained 10 of those back! So, it is my goal now to get down to 135. I was only 10 pounds away, now I have to struggle with 20. So, here I go again, trying to get back on track. I will be tracking my calorie intake and try to be more active. I sure hope this works. I definitely don't want to go back to where I was.
UPDATE 4-16-2012: I had my gastric sleeve done on 4-11-2012. I'm feeling pretty good so far. Better than I expected. I'm ready for the change in my eating habits and look forward to seeing a healthier me. I have to remember that this surgery is just a tool and I still have to make good decisions.
UPDATE 1-24-12: Well, I got approved for a loan for my weight loss surgery. It sure doesn't come cheap, but I am ready to make that leap. I know a lot of people see this as cheating, but some people just don't understand what heavyset people go through to feel "normal". I know I have self-esteem issues. I'm not in denial, but I feel as if this is my only chance at feeling good about my outward appearance. My husband doesn't quite understand the drastic measures I want to take to achieve this goal, but he knows how unhappy I am and supports me 100%. I have my first consultation meeting on Feb. 9th and will hopefully have my surgery by early March. Good luck to all those on your weight loss journey. We all have the same goal. I'm just choosing a different route in getting there.
UPDATE 11-9-2011: It happened! I gained back all my weight!!! It's so hard to work hard to lose it when you gain it all back. :( I'm so depressed in that respect. I have the most awesome marriage and the worst body! Good thing my hubby still loves me. LOL! So here I go again back on the weight loss journey. I'm seriously contemplating weight loss surgery now. My body just isn't made to stay thinner on its own. But on the better side of life, not only did I marry my soul mate but he took me to my dream location of Ireland for my honeymoon. It was absolutely breathtaking. We also had our vows redone in the oldest church, Christchurch Cathedral in Dublin. It was beautiful!
UPDATE 4-7-2010: It happened! I got married! February 13, 2010. I never thought it would happen. I've waited so long for this! My husband is dern near perfect. Yes ladies. I found the man that we all dream about. The one we thought wasn't out there. He's just gotta be an alien from another planet because men like him just don't happen! Anyways. I'm super happy. All I need is to get down to my goal weight and I don't think anything could get much better. Well, okay, I guess the sound of pitter pattering little feet would seal the deal. My son is almost 11! I know I have to start over, but I can't wait! New life, new family, new lifestyle change, and possibly new member of the family to come. I love my life! Finally!
UPDATE 9-1-2009: Ok, so It's been awhile since I updated this page. Things are going very well in my life. I finally finished up with my Associates Degree. Yeah, I know, it's not much, but it's something. I found the man of my dreams recently. After a year of trying our mutual friends managed the "hook-up" and I couldn't be happier. He is the BEST thing that has ever happened to me aside from my wonderful son. He is so good to both of us. I guess dreams really do come true. Well at least some dreams. The weight loss dreams are a neverending yo-yo. I lose and gain, up and down. It's so frustrating. I finally found someone that accepts me for who I am faults and all AND fat and all. He can't see my fat like I do, he just tells me I'm beautiful. It's so hard to accept that when I can't come to terms with accepting myself. I did really good for awhile then stopped seeing the results and BAM, back to where I was. I just can't seem to get below that 200 mark again. Heck, I can't even get past the 215 mark it seems. Why does weight loss have to be so hard? I have an addiction and it's so hard to get rid of it. So, I'm back to the drawing boards, hoping Sparkpeople will be my saving grace yet again. Sparkpeople seems to be my Cheers. Sometimes you've gotta go where everyone knows your name! But I know it takes two to tango and I can't just look at my Spark Page and loose the weight. I have to get my ARSE into gear, yet again. Wish me luck everyone. I need it so bad! And good luck to all of you!
2007: Well, my name is Mae Lynn. I started out weighing a whopping 260!!!! I was able to drop down to 188. Then due to a VERY stressful year I got back up to 235 but I can't tell you how good that 188 felt. It is so discouraging to have gained so much back. I just feel like screaming most of the time because I know I'm doing this to myself. This past year has been the most horrible in my life and it's been really hard trying to get back on track and turn things around. See, I was the victim of a very abusive relationship. But then, can you really be called a victim when you allow these things to happen to you? So along came months of the eating disorders I was slowing getting rid of. Eat when your happy, eat when your sad, eat when you're lonely, and eating just for the sake of eating. If I've lost my spark before, this is like none other. But on a good note, I've started college again. For once in a very long time, I feel like I'm reaching for an attainable goal. One that just might take me somewhere other than down. So here I am again. Trying so hard to get that spark back. Not just for the change on the outside, but hopefully for that long term change on the inside. Good luck to all because this is one battle that is so hard to win.
To look better in clothes and to feel better about myself. I'll admit it, I wanna be looked at!
Trying to eat better choices and trying to excercise more. It's so hard!
I live in a one horse town. :)
When I finally started
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1444 days ago
HAPPY HALLOWEEN SPARKS FRIENDS
HAPPY HALLOWEEN SPARKS FRIENDS,
THE SONG OF THE WITCHES
William Shakespear (MacBeth)
Double, double toil and trouble;
Fire burn and caldron bubble.
Fillet of a fenny snake,
In the caldron boil and bake;
Eye of newt and toe of frog,
Wool of bat and tongue of dog,
Adder's fork and bling-worms sting,
Lizard's leg and howlet's wing,
For a charm of powerful trouble,
Like a hell-broth boil and bubble.
Double, double toil and trouble;
Fire burn and caldron bubble.
Cool it with a baboon's blood,
Then the charm is firm and good.
Wherever you are, whatever you do,
have a safe and Happy Halloween!
~The Psychic Sparkers Team~
2429 days ago
We have slowly but surely painted the whole interior of the house barring one hall way and the bathroom in the last 4 months, it is time to paint the exterior since we are suppose to have 3 days of high 70's low 80's sunny weather! the main color will be Artichoke and the trim is a Sand color with a red front and back door :) I am looking forward to getting rid of the bright neonish yellow the previous owner put on it!
2621 days ago
Thanks for stopping by my page, and for the sweet compliments! :-) It looks like you're doing great - with a clear vision of your goal and the determination to get you there. Way to go! We're both going to make it to the end of this journey, and then watch out world - LOL! --Marsha
2622 days ago
Ello ello Daisy mae! I love the name ;) Thanks for adding me, I went ahead and did the same, pop in often!
2633 days ago