In my earlier life, I was fortunate. First of all I actually had a pretty good body image which is pretty amazing given I was a shy, introverted and not particularly active teen. But as I moved into my 20s and joined a gym, I loved that I was healthy and strong, and I liked my figure well enough. I also never really had to watch what I ate too carefully, but time caught up with me (just like mama said it would) and in 2006 I reached 144 pounds. I decided it was time to do something and I joined Sparkpeople and lost 14 lbs. I did it because my clothes were snug and I had a little muffin top....mainly vanity I suppose, but I also wanted to stay fit as an example to my daughter.
Then the next summer, I started slowly putting it back on (read too many BBQs). Still I worked out fairly regularly and I ate pretty healthy, so I didn't worry about it too much. Then by Dec 2008 I was up to my highest weight yet, 150 lbs. On my 5'4" frame, it showed.
So in January 2009 I hired a personal trainer for me and the hubby. He did great, but my weight and measurements stubbornly held their own, with me only down 3 lbs in 9 months.
In the years following that, matter what I did it seems the pounds stayed put, only going down a few and back up a couple. Despite a surgery in the midst of those years, I did two rounds of P90X, a round of Insanity, etc. with good results in terms of fitness but still not losing the stubborn fat. Some people suggest that the hysterectomy I had may be in part to blame. I even hike the West Highland Way with my husband (best trip ever!). So while I had plenty of muscle and good cardiovascular health, I still had all this stubborn fat sticking around.
Then a couple years ago, I broke my leg in a bad way, requiring surgery and a long recovery. I basically just gave up and spent about a year and a half doing nothing and not worrying about what I ate. I used the pain in my leg as an excuse long after I could have started doing more. To be honest, it didn't respond nicely to exercise when I tried it, but I also know in great part that's because I would start and stop all the time and never let it get strong enough.
My weight ballooned to 173. BUT, it seems to have reset something, somehow. Whereas all my hard work before didn't result in any kind of fat or weight loss, after that rest, my easier workouts and simple changes to my eating as I get started again on the road to health have resulted in 9 lbs in 3 months. It's terribly slow, but it's been steady. And I'm good with that.
Although I check the scale and am happy to see it moving in the right direction, my goals are more based on getting in MY best shape based on what my body is ready for, and not about getting to a certain weight or size. This is good because since then I managed to regain again. I've determined that the most important thing for me is moving more during the day. I sit at a desk and without that movement mid day I gain. It's coming back off as my lunchtime walking routine is getting back on track after my walk partner's busy season came to an end.
Sure I have a weight loss goal to achieve a weight where I know in the past I felt really good, but it's a long term goal. I've learned not to set my short term goals based on the scale because it does go so slowly for me (and sometimes goes up) that it's just frustrating. Instead I have short term goals based on reaching milestones in my fitness level.
Right now I'm working on a 5k run/walk challenge. Given I ran a half marathon many years ago, and I walk nearly an hour a day, it seems like such a small goal, but the soft tissue damage in my leg is still not 100% healed in terms of having the strength, balance and flexibility I had before, so adding running back into the equation has to be done slowly and with much care.
Maybe in part it's a level of maturity, but the scale doesn't have to rule my day. It's only a tool to check progress, and there are many other tools I have as well. And instead of trying to look like I did in my 20s (because that is NOT going to happen), I'm learning to be content again in my own skin.
Finish 90 days of P90X/Insanity Hybrid and, hopefully, be at my ideal weight by my wedding anniversary. (April 2011)
Keep calories under 1500 and get back into a daily exercise program.
I'm from Ontario, Canada and have a fun loving DH, a lovely DD and step DD, SIL and grandbaby, a cat, a Shinese "puppy" (Jan 3/09), and a very hyper-active dog. She's an English Springer Spaniel and will be going with me for outdoor workouts! Maybe she can work off some of her energy while helping me to keep going.
I love to knit and am a forever student, taking part time studies in addition to working full time.
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| current weight: 169.6