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"A solitary maiden, whose only friends were birds and flowers; and her companions- books."

"I drink to remember, I smoke to forget
Some things to be proud of some stuff to regret
Run down some dark alleys in my own head
Something is changing, changing, changing

So I kiss goodbye to every little ounce of pain
Light a cigarette and wish the world away
I got out, I got out, I'm alive but I'm here to stay
So I hold two fingers up to yesterday
Light a cigarette and smoke it all away
I got out, I got out, I'm alive but I'm here ...
"I drink to remember, I smoke to forget
Some things to be proud of some stuff to regret
Run down some dark alleys in my own head
Something is changing, changing, changing

So I kiss goodbye to every little ounce of pain
Light a cigarette and wish the world away
I got out, I got out, I'm alive but I'm here to stay
So I hold two fingers up to yesterday
Light a cigarette and smoke it all away
I got out, I got out, I'm alive but I'm here to stay

There's a story for every corner of this place
Running so hard you got out but your knees got grazed
I'm an old dog but I learned some new tricks yeah

Hey, hey it's fine
Hey, hey it's fine
Hey, hey it's fine
I left it behind!"

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Oh my friends, where I(t) start and where do I(t) finish?
I'm constantly on the road to make amends. I'm facing my demons one scary sh!t at a time... I wish I got out whole from the fight; I wish there's a self to be found.

My life just can't be about my weight- there's a zillion more things to who I am.

Where I've been: Morbidly obese (BMI:49.5)
Where I am: Overweight (BMI: 30)
Where I'm going: Destination Joanness

Life in numbers: 21 years

I'm Joanna and I'm trying.
Let's see where that'll take me.

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Member Since: 6/7/2011

SparkPoints: 56,595

Fitness Minutes: 26,899

My Goals:
Goal No1: Become overweight for real: 105 kgs
Reached in Dec 9 2013

Goal No 2: See a 2-digit number on scale: 100 kgs
Reached in March 19 2014

Goal No3: 99 kgs :p
Reached in April (17/4 98.5)

Goal No4: Become overweight in numbers: 95 kgs. Reached in November (28/11 95.2)

Goal No5: Reach 85 kgs.
Goal No6: Reach 80 kgs Wonderland (haven't been there since I was 8 years old-and shorter :D)
Goal Weight: Reach 75 kgs WOWland and see if it's a comfortable and maintainable weight for my kicka$$ body!!! :D :D :D

My Program:
Passionate vegan, for all the right reasons.

Green salads, fruits, whole foods.
Little dessert treats only when I r e a l l y want them.
Yoga instead of strength training because I can really feel my body working hard then; plus it's much more enjoyable :D :D :D
Walk, walk, walk and then walk more. :D
Ballet, contemporary and classical and maybe hitting the gym strictly for some more strength training.
Last but not least: Re-create my mindset towards food and eating.

Other Information:
Things to try as I get thinner (or trying to get thinner ;D) : ballet, yoga, pilates, yogilates, contemporary ballet, running, biking, contortionist performance, archery, fencing horse riding, loose sweaters, skirts, dresses, shorts, skinny jeans, high-waisted shorts, long boots,bralets, rings, waistcoats, wandering around with my bathingsuit in the beach, without feeling I have to cover myself...


You're welcome to give more motivational ideas!!! :D

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JIBBIE49
2/9/2015 11:52:43 AM

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The Aquarian child is some how an isolated only child, who spends a lot of time with adults rather than other children, thus the child learns quickly and becomes very smart. Aquarius has to watch for injury to the ankles.
In Aquarius the Sun is eccentric and original. You're apt to be a superb thinker, and your ideas are frequently advanced, no matter what field of profession you select. Often, your unique approaches to problem solving are viewed as too radical and unworkable, but you prefer to think of them as advanced and progressive instead. Unconventional and outspoken, you see your role as the rebel and the person who rejects worn out traditions and old ways of operating. You like to be with those ushering in the new order and fostering advanced thinking.

Paradoxically, you're a good team player, but one who must have personal freedom. You don't like to feel fenced in. While you're headstrong and inflexible in your ways, you can work very effectively within a large group. You have complete respect for the sound ideas put forward by others. You are aloof and detached, and your concerns are directed toward society rather than to the problems of any one person. You are somewhat impersonal most of the time. You're more emotionally involved with your work than you are with people. You can be highly critical and demanding in a position of authority. Nonetheless, you are a strong leader and organizer. You have a deep understanding of human nature, but often you lack sensitivity to the emotional content of many situations.
You thrive on change and managing the unexpected. Always ahead of your time, you are viewed by everyone as being different and unusual, labels you don't mind accepting. You pride yourself on your ability to find a better way of doing the job. Sometimes you lack follow through, and you always dislike routine. You like to take chances and keep everything stirred up. Occasionally, you enjoy antagonizing people in positions of authority, and stimulating a good argument now and then. You don't mind that you are seen as a bit unusual, in fact, you may encourage this image.
Equality, freedom and fairness are all important issues for you. You strongly subscribe to the doctrine that all people are created equal and should have the same rights and opportunities. In this regard, you are likely to be classified as a progressive and often associated with humanitarian issues and causes. Though you are very involved with such matters, your approach is always somewhat in the abstract, with ideological concepts, the sort that don't usually stem from true emotions. Your approach is often very impersonal and detached.
Friendly and sociable, you may have a wide circle of acquaintances. Friends are very important to you. Intellectually oriented, you are happiest with friends that share common ideas and interests. Strangely, you find it more difficult to cultivate a truly satisfying intimate relationship. This aloofness exists because feelings are rarely expressed outwardly, and you usually seem distant. You resist anything or anyone threatening your independence. -



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Hope you had a fabulous Birthday Done Girl!!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONE GIRL!!
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