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Finding My Motivation... Again....

What can I say???? I just can't seem to get t together. My mind knows what I need to do, and yet.... I fight it every step of the way. It is not as if I don't want to be healthier and thinner.... so what is wrong with me?!? I have read all kinds of information, been on and off of SP for several years, but I can't seem to stick with it. I will be going along really well with nutrition and exercise and it takes nothing to knock me off track. I am praying this time I can figure it out and ...
What can I say???? I just can't seem to get t together. My mind knows what I need to do, and yet.... I fight it every step of the way. It is not as if I don't want to be healthier and thinner.... so what is wrong with me?!? I have read all kinds of information, been on and off of SP for several years, but I can't seem to stick with it. I will be going along really well with nutrition and exercise and it takes nothing to knock me off track. I am praying this time I can figure it out and really stick it through. I absolutely hate the way I feel right now... in my clothes, in my body and in my mind. This is no way to live. Lord help me really get it this time!

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Sooooo...... I am starting over once again. It seems like I just cannot keep my motivation up and stay strong. At the begining of the year I was set on sticking with it. I had over 120 days of continuous exercise, I was eating right... usually :-) there was still some learning to do... and in those 4 months lost only4 pounds. Now I know it's not the # so much as how you feel, etc. I was feeling good, but there was no change in inches or clothing. I was already feeling depressed and like it wasn't worth it and then there was a tragic death in my family. I just lost all motivation. I knew I should eat right, I should continue to exercise... but I just couldn't. I am now at my all time high weight and feel "gross" all the time. I want to do this for me, my kids, my husband, and my father who passed coming on three years. I am praying that this will be THE TIME... the time that everything I know will somehow meld with everything I feel... the time where I will finally get it... the time will I won't give up...

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I have tried all my life to lose weight. But after losing my father to pancreatic cancer Feb 2010 I really felt the need to make it happen. I was doing well, and then stumbled through June. I found this site and now am on my way to making it happen!

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Well I fell back into my old lifestyle and even though I tried numerous times during 2011, I just did not have the commitment to make it work. Life got in the way... I got in the way... But now is the time to refresh my life. I have found the excitement I had in the begining. Instead of feeling like something I "gotta do" . I am now excited and wanna do it! Here's is to 2012!!!!!
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The Aquarian child is some how an isolated only child, even if she/he has siblings, so that the child spends a great deal of time with adults rather than other children, thus learning quickly. Aquarius gets along with Libra, Leo, Aries, Sagittarius and Gemini, but should avoid Scorpio who is set in his ways, as Aquarius MUST have freedom. The health issues for Aquarius is the ankles. Aquarius is not a fat sign, so weight can certainly cause problems in the ankles thus leading to knee and or feet problems. Yoga, Pilates and fun workouts like Zumba appeal to Aquarius who loves being with a group.

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