Wondering how things are going. I saw a post of yours from awhile back on a Spark team for eating disorders. I love Spark but it can be hard here, with all the emphasis on sticking to diets or calorie limits, etc., to get support to combat a disorder, which is often characterized by a severe attachment to just those behaviors. Eating is not really the disordered person's big problem; a lack of self-kindness while pursuing a supportive eating plan is. I wish I could help you, especially if you haven't found support somewhere else.
In any case, warmest wishes and a Joyous New Year!