hello. i'm new here too. your picture of charlie brown caught my eye. i too am a fan of " good ole charlie brown". i've identified with him since i first saw him as a child. yes, i was actually able to watch the first airing of the christmas special. i've been trying to read some of the messages on the boards. there are so many. even just reading them helps me feel like i'm not alone. there are people that truely understand what it's like. i hope you find it as helpful as i do knowing you're not alone with this.