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2/28/2011
Back from Jamaica - 5 lbs. heavier than when I left. Bloated from salt and drinks - and disgusted with how easy it is to fall back into bad patterns!
New profile pic selected not because it depicts how much blubber I have on my body (even my head is fat!) - but moreso because it shows me climbing a 1000 foot waterfall. Now, I ask myself... Why the he** can I climb a 1000 foot waterfall - in a freaking bathing suit - in front of 100's of people - but I ...
2/28/2011
Back from Jamaica - 5 lbs. heavier than when I left. Bloated from salt and drinks - and disgusted with how easy it is to fall back into bad patterns!
New profile pic selected not because it depicts how much blubber I have on my body (even my head is fat!) - but moreso because it shows me climbing a 1000 foot waterfall. Now, I ask myself... Why the he** can I climb a 1000 foot waterfall - in a freaking bathing suit - in front of 100's of people - but I can't stop putting food into my mouth?!?!?
So, this picture is my new flag.... I made it up that freaking waterfall - and I will make it up this ladder of life to a normal weight. I accepted help to get up the waterfall. I have to accept help to lose weight. I used all my strength to get up the waterfall. I have to use all my strength to lose weight.
I CAN accomplish whatever I want - but, I have to want it bad enough.
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9/28/2010
I got up and realized I've been feeding myself a line of bullsh** so huge I can't fathom someone around me didn't smack me upside the head.
Who do I think I'm kidding....... Oh yeah, I'm working on getting healthy. Funny thing, i forgot that involves more than having a spark page and spinning the wheel every morning. It actually involves real work!
I'm 47 years old - and pushing 50 hard and fast. My lifestyle is full of many things I shouldn't be doing... including going out to eat and partying too much. I'm blessed with wonderful family, great friends and a full, rich life I wouldn't trade for the world. I party too much, laugh hard and often, love with all of my being and would give my last breath for those I care about.
I wouldn't trade what I have for anything. This means I have to find a balance between the two. There is a way to do it.... it may not be the book defined "right" way .... but, after all these years I've come to realize I am never going to accomplish that.
I am going to find "my way". A way to stick to this, lose the 75 lbs. that will make me feel far less terrible about myself and get my fat a** off the couch.
Doing so well for a few months........ and watching myself slide down while denying the slide is yet another awakening in this sometimes horrible journey. What was I thinking? Who am I kidding? Why the he** can't I figure out how to do this and just get it done?!!?
So, here I am - almost one whole year after starting... and starting again. All I can say is I'm crossing my fingers and hoping I'm not writing the same thing another year from now.
I have two kids, three dogs, parents who live six blocks from me (and love the unannounced pop-in), a full-time job selling real estate (full-time with not much pay lately), a very small charity organization, am working on getting my motorcycle license, an average home surrounded by people who think they are much more than they are, I can absolutely make time to exercise and focus on myself - and if you asked anyone to sum me up in a few words - they would say I am real and have a lack of tolerance for bullsh**.
(So, why have I been able to bullsh** myself when it comes to health and what I'm shoving down my gullet? For the life of me, I can't figure it out!)
Time to get this party started..... again!
(i just spent 30 minutes trying to pick a color for the background of this page.... perhaps i could have spent 30 mins walking around the block? maybe this is part of my problem! :)
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written December 29, 2009
Tomorrow never comes when it's the day you're going to start getting healthy and you've made a habit out of years of saying "i'll start tomorrow". It's three months since I started this - and I still believe that's the most true thing in the world. I've not met my first goal - but I won't let it be an excuse to "start tomorrow" yet again.
I've been fat my whole life. I say "fat" because that's what is resting on my legs as i sit here and type, and that's what is under my chin in every picture that's taken of me! I'm just really tired of being fat - and nothing is going to fix it but me.
I've lost 75 lbs. plus at least six times in my life. Looked good - felt great. Didn't do it the right way any of those times. Always used the diet pill crutch. This time no crutch - AND i may actually get my big butt off the couch and move a little - besides walking to the refrigerator :)
I'm looking forward to this journey not only as a way to be healthier, but also to be able to walk through a crowd and not feel like the fatted calf and a way to learn why i do this to myself.
I hope to make a few friends along the way - and wish everyone the best in their journey, also!
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Member Since: 12/28/2009
SparkPoints: 7,629
Fitness Minutes: 4,688
My Goals:
To finally accept that every meal is not a celebration - and I should be eating to live not living to eat.
Under 240 by end of 2011.
Be alive when my grandchildren are born.
Feel like my husband can be proud of me when we walk into a room.
Get my cholesterol to a human level.
Not eat more than 200 calories after 9:00 p.m. (Tough one for me! I'm like a squirrel and stash my calories like nuts for the winter so I can have the late night binge!)
Get on a motorcycle and have people look at me because I look pretty good - not because I'm weighing the tires down to being flat.
90 minutes of cardio a week - minimum
drink the water - take the vitamin - stay in calorie range
always remember where i was so i never forget the accomplishments i make - no matter how small.
fit into an airplane seat without having to lean half my body in the aisle.
go places without being the fa
My Program:
Log into Spark every day
Drink 8 glasses of water a day
Limit white flour and refined sugar products
Log all of my food
Take a vitamin each day
Exercise 3 times a week - regardless of what it is
Remember that every day is a new day - but no day is an excuse
Personal Information:
I'm from the Southwest Suburbs of Chicago - where drive-thru's, pizza delivery and giant portions are everyone's friend!
Failure is not defined by the successes of others. It's defined by those things we overcome ourselves.
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