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Really Starting Over
Hi Everyone-
I think I am back.
I hope so anyway.
I am at a high weight which I have not seen the likes of in many years. Two hundred and eleven pounds....last check. YIKES!
It's okay though...I feel as hausfrau I as ever possibly could. But I am sick of myself, sick of my reflection-and just really want to change and understand that it's not going to happen just by thinking about it.
I also used to really staunch my weight (gain) with compulsive exercise, ...
Hi Everyone-
I think I am back.
I hope so anyway.
I am at a high weight which I have not seen the likes of in many years. Two hundred and eleven pounds....last check. YIKES!
It's okay though...I feel as hausfrau I as ever possibly could. But I am sick of myself, sick of my reflection-and just really want to change and understand that it's not going to happen just by thinking about it.
I also used to really staunch my weight (gain) with compulsive exercise, which, because of a recurring back injury-has become impossible. I am at a place where I don't even want to walk, I don't want to do anything. So many things have been changing in my life and I really want to be fit and feel good. I feel like I have spent a good amount of time allowing my eating free reign. And like any addict the time has come to intervene. I quit eating sugar four days ago in a moment of surrender. Once again it's become apparent how completely it rules me. If I don't eat it, I don't binge on it...go figure.
My goal is of course to get into a bikini...always has been, always will be... but more than that, I want to be fit, strong, healthy and lean. Leaner. You know what I mean. I'm hoping Spark will help me get there!
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Member Since: 10/17/2008
SparkPoints: 12,977
Fitness Minutes: 26,694
My Goals:
I want to have a strong and healthy eating base that is binge/and mostly-sugar free. My new goal is to end eating as an emotional salve and have good balanced baseline eating habits.
I want to be a normal eater. Be recovered from my eating disorder, heal my body image, and love myself. Be happy and healthy.
My Program:
Figure out how to eat normally without binging.
Workout 4-5 hours a week.
Exercise with a healthy attitude and not to compensate for excesses.
Personal Information:
My name is Cindy and I am 48 years old and live in Portland Oregon. I have been overweight my whole life, and would really like to figure out how to be a normal eater.
Other Information:
I am living my life in joy and acceptance, doing what makes me happy. I will move freely and energetically throughout each day.
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