ah that is something recognizable..i worked as an xray tech for time out of mind..you have to learn to disengage yourself from what the patient is feeling..that's hard to do but you have to..that is not to say you cannot make them comfortable and talk to them but you are not responsible for what happened to them or even if they fail to get well..you can only do your best and that is all you are respnsible for..as you know the patient who comes in the the hospital beyond help all you can do is make them comfortable..i worked backup in the emergency room i can bag with the best and cpr with the best but sometimes there is no best..it's hard even harder when it is a child or even babies..maybe you need to talk about this with a therapist and try to get back into the field..you need to be fearless with yourself..hospitals are crying for nurses these days..or find a job in a clinic or a small office..don't throw your life away because you felt you couldn't do anything..you need to overcome that fear i know this can be done because there are many nursing students an nurses and residents that i have just put my arms around and cried with them..however that patient didn't die alone and sometimes that's all you can count..i used to spend time in the chapel because it was all i could do to console myself so think if that is a reason for all this you need to talk and get it back together so you can help others the lady mary
Hello Chrystal! Welcome to the first day of the rest of your life! I am sure you will be feeling better a long the way of your journey! Hope you have a good one and if you have questions I am sure we can help!