Thank you so much for my goodie, my friend! I am so excited that I finally lost 10 lbs! WOOO HOOO! It was so hard this time round for me. Ughhh! I hope you are doing well...I have had the craziest month and I have not been able to get onto sparkpeople as often and I would like this month. I am cheering you on...I know you can reach your goal!!!! Talk with you soon... Drea
Congratulations on the 500 pts... I'm sooo jealous!! (lol) And thank you so much for the Spark Goodie--how sweet and generous, my friend. I have 30 acres, and due to this year's rain and the wind where I live, the weeds are rampant! I use everything from a 6' mower attachment to my tractor to hand pulling (around the house, etc.)--I would go crazy altogether, but I keep telling myself that this is good work for the 'ol body... hamstrings are squealing after a bout with the weeds though... I guess no pain, no gain. Have a great week! Anne 2193 days ago
Thanks so much for your continued support, and especially for your comment on my blog today. I didn't feel good (or "clean") until I confronted myself, then it was okay... the next step was clear--was I in or out?! The choice was fairly easy to be in. As to why the foot dragging and pretense, I can only speak for me, but it has to do with fear... fear of giving up the familiar, fear of what I'll feel when I'm no longer heavy (have been to some extent most of my life), fear of so many unknowns. I realize also that I have to grieve what I'm leaving... there were a lot of wonderful experiences in that old body, it kept me safe, and, as I said, to a large extent, it's all I know.
I'm way out of my comfort zone to forge ahead, not knowing the outcome... it's just not my nature. (As a therapist, I know that all of that sense of control is a myth anyway... we're each in control of nothing.)
I wish you well in figuring it out--I think it's hugely important. I realize that I will not succeed without doing this part of the "work," along with the food management and the rest.
All the best to you, my friend. Anne 2200 days ago