My reasons for doing this. Christmas 2011
I want to look like this again, and then even better. 5/14/11
There she is, up there on the mountain. I see her brown hair blowing in the wind. She looks confident up there as she surveys the ground below. The bright fall leaves only add to the wonder of seeing her up there. I need to get up there. I have to get to her. She has the secrets that I need to know. She can tell me how to get where I'm going. I'm going to have to climb. Can I do it? Will I fall? "Come on." she beckons. So I climb.
My will is strong. I'm going to make it. My body begins to grow tired. My muscles are sore. My feet are slipping. I fall. I need to rest, but how long will she wait. I can't lose her. I dust off my hands and begin to climb again. Once again I'm climbing. There's a voice calling me. Is it her? No it's someone on the ground. They're screaming that I'm up too high, they want me to come down. Maybe I am up too high. Maybe I should climb down. This is a big mountain and I am tired. I don't want to fall again. So I inch down.
As I slowly step backwards I begin to wonder. What about the girl at the top? Don't I want to find her? What did she have to tell me? I look up and see her looking down at me. "Come on, you can do it." she says. She seems farther away than the last time I looked. Can I do it? Am I really strong enough to climb all that way? Will I be able to get back up if I fall again? Yes! So I climb again.
Every step brings me closer to her. Every step makes me feel better, happier, and stronger. I still hear the voice from the ground it's just a little quieter. I'm trying not to listen to it. I just want to focus on getting to the top of the mountain. I'm going to do it this time. I'm going to slip. I'm going to fall. But I'm going to get up and keep on going. I need to get to that girl on the top of the mountain. She is everything I want to be. She is me, at my best. She's what I'm working for. She is... me.
Where am I? I'm working my way up that mountain. Every step changes me. Every breath fuels me. She is waiting for me and she says the view is amazing.
I just want to start losing the weight again.
Everyone says you have to do this for yourself, and you have to want it. I'm confessing now I'm not doing this for myself, not totally anyway. I'm the mom of two girls who are quickly picking up my bad habits. I want them to grow up happy and healthy. I need to make changes now so they can feel good about themselves later. Along the way I hope to retrain and start feeling better about myself. I've spent so much of my life overweight and unhappy, I don't want that for my girls.
I am a dork, and I am done being a fat dork!
| current weight: 262.5
Miss you, hope you are doing ok.
321 days ago
Happy Belated Birthday, DONE GIRL
In Sagittarius the Sun is idealistic and optimistic. Sagittarius is the sign that espouses such high principles as universal love and world peace. As this period of the year is associated with the spirit of giving and good cheer, the Sagittarius personality is recognized for its generosity and expansive demeanor. Sag loves to buy gifts for others. Sag is ruled by Jupiter which expands, so the Sag woman can be a big spender, but she works hard and can make a lot of money. Her health area is around her hips, so she can have nerve pain, joint or groin issues. She wanted to be like her Dad, so she loves being outside, and therefore she really isn't cut out to be a Stay-at-home-Mom. She is a hard worker, but she really doesn't love doing housework. She is a Tomboy at heart and a true athlete. She can have a weight issue, since she can overeat, but she really isn't cut out to be fat as she loves to stay active. She loves animals and can work at a job with animals. She can be a college Professor or a tour guide, as she loves to travel. She is very smart. She does have a blunt mouth, so don't ask her for an opinion unless you want to hear it "straight from the horse's mouth." She never keeps a grudge but tells you to your face what she thinks.
You are very gregarious, enthusiastic, and open, in all that you do. You have an ability to understand a broad perspective, and to see everything from a total point of view. Your foresight and an ability to visualize the big picture make matters work out well for you most of the time. Always thinking in broad abstract terms, you usually have trouble focusing on details that arise.
In many ways you are spontaneous, but with this comes an inclination to be bluntly honest and frank, or at least, straightforward and much to the point. You never intend to hurt anyone, but the truth is all important to you, and you never hesitate to tell it like it is. Tact and restraint can be issues of concern, but you probably don't care. You are so independent. You can rarely be pushed an inch in any direction unless you decide the direction your being pushed is where you want to go.
These blows are softened only by your warm, jovial and outgoing friendliness. Even when you stick your hoof in your mouth you can recover and show up as a winner. Often "lady luck" just smiles on you. Sagittarius has a happy-go-lucky, honest, cheerful, and ever optimistic approach to life; but then can turn right around and be so careless, restless and extravagant.
You have a natural love of the outdoors and may develop strong enthusiasm for sports and outdoor adventure. Sagittarius is the sign most often associated with sports, and you are inclined to physical activity and active endeavors, particularly outdoors.
Future-oriented, you rarely allow problems or setbacks to get you down for long. You put disappointment behind you and start working toward your next adventure. Never satisfied with moving along in slow lane, you want to set the pace on a grand scale. Whatever you set out to do, must be the biggest and best. You want to live life to its fullest. You can work well with anybody, accepting them for what they are. You are the natural, open-hearted extrovert, an easy person live and work with. Relying on your glibness and complete self-confidence, you are a natural in the world of selling. Still in the area of organization and perseverance you may need help from other factors in the chart. If you are like most Sagittarius natives, you can be down right irresponsible and unreliable at times. Your personality is such, however, that people don't get upset about it. It's that natural Sagittarius charm that carries you through the tough spots.
Sagittarius is the sign of higher education. You live to expand your horizons in every possible way, wanting to see the world and experience it. You want to meet interesting people and try everything. Your curiosity is boundless and your desire for knowledge is paramount.
543 days ago
Happy Belated Birthday Done Girl!
545 days ago
Happy Birthday, Done Girl!
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