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I've been doing some reflecting and I realized I've been using the fat as a cushion between me and the rest of the world. I could always use my fat as an excuse to not do the things I've always wanted to do. I could just say, "No I'm too fat" when I was too afraid to do something. No more. Never again will I use the excuse of being too fat to not do something I want to do. It's time for me to start living my life as I've always wanted to live it. I've always had this idea of what my life would look like someday when I was "really living it." I don't want to have to imagine anymore - I want to experience and LIVE. I want to do things I never thought possible. I want to accomplish the unimaginable. I want to make this dream I have always had of losing weight and living my dream life a reality. I want to feel like I belong in my own life and in the world around me - so often I feel isolated from the rest of the world because I'm fat. I'm bigger than all my friends. I want to be able to borrow my friend's shirt and not feel ashamed because I stretch it out. I want to live in a world where every single day can be the greatest day of my life, and should be, even if the greatest means painful, challenging, and changing. I don't think I really want to change myself, but I want to live in a body that is willing to change and is receptive to change and will be changed by where I am and the things around me. There is a whole world out there that I am not a part of because of the state my body is in, and I know that my fullest potential is out there - I just have to find it. I know that living in a healthier body will help me find it. 2015 is the year this all happens.

I'm taking 2015 to find my true self and my inner diva. I have to find the diva that's hiding under the fat. The diva who has been stuck under the fat for so long. She's crying to get out. I'll find her. I know I will. 2015 is my year. 2015 is the year I make a promise to myself and give myself permission and courage to focus solely on weight loss.

Member Since: 1/13/2009

Fitness Minutes: 111,814

My Goals:
I really just want to get healthier. That's my main goal. I want to become a better version of myself. And I want to do it while maintaining a positive attitude. I'm going to have setbacks. That's okay. I just have to remain positive about it.

My Program:
The same as everyone, really: eat healthier, exercise more. I'm just taking things one day at a time. Every day I wake up and tell myself that I can eat healthy and be healthy for just today. Just for today. I can do this for just one day. This helps me not become too overwhelmed by the big picture and how much I need to lose, but just focus on the day to day struggle of leading a healthy life.

Personal Information:
I'm Caryn and I'm a 26 year old grad student trying to make myself healthier. I am a public health graduate student, working to be healthy and happy and find a balance between school, work, and my self.

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"In our humanity we have timetables in our hearts and, when our life veers away from those, we assume that we are off course or we have missed whatever it was God had for us at one point. I no longer believe that to be true. All we are asked to do is to trust God and keep following him, no matter how dark the path gets."

"Don't let your past decide your future. "
-Frederick R. Bliss

"In the confrontation between the stream and the rock, the stream always wins, not through strength but by perseverance."
-H. Jackson Brown

"He asks only for us to trust, to know with wonder that every grain of sand in the desert and star sprinkled into the night sky is there by his hand and his heart - and on purpose."

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    Thanks for your support! Counting down! I AM excited.
    7 days ago
    Thank you for your kind good wishes on my exam, young friend. However it turns out, I am going down fighting!!!!

    We are fighting together, aren't we? To be fully engaged in our lives!

    Much love to you today. emoticon emoticon
    21 days ago
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    Frank Tyger
    If animals could talk, the world would lose its best listeners.
    ~Robert Brault
    "Silent" and "listen" are spelled with the same letters.
    ~Author Unknown
    God gave us two ears and one mouth, so we can hear twice as much as we say.
    We have two ears and one mouth so that we can listen twice as much as we speak.
    Home is where you can say anything you like cause nobody listens to you anyway.
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    24 days ago
  • v CBRINKLEY401
    My daughter's BP during her pregnancy was high. Didn't help though that she was rushing to the appointments right from her job, and they took the readings right after she got there. She finally convinced them to wait a bit first and then take them. Still high, just not as bad. Of course the initial high readings were enough to make her more anxious which didn't help her BP readings later either.
    29 days ago
    Thanks for adding me!
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