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Be Your Own Hero
Welcome to my Sparkpage! There have been so many changes for me since I started Spark! I was going by the username txgal4474. I changed it because I felt that I was hiding who I was because of my weight! My name is Carol, and this is me. This is my journey! When I first started with SP, I was terribly unhappy with what I saw in the mirror but never did a thing about it! My husband wasn't complaining, it couldn't be that bad..RIGHT? I would eat like a bear that needed to store food in ...
Welcome to my Sparkpage! There have been so many changes for me since I started Spark! I was going by the username txgal4474. I changed it because I felt that I was hiding who I was because of my weight! My name is Carol, and this is me. This is my journey! When I first started with SP, I was terribly unhappy with what I saw in the mirror but never did a thing about it! My husband wasn't complaining, it couldn't be that bad..RIGHT? I would eat like a bear that needed to store food in his belly because he was going to hibernate for the winter. I knew there was more to me that this miserable person staring back at me. Everytime I walked in a room, I was sure they were talking about how big I had gotten. How had this happened? How had I allowed myself to get that big?
Well, the weight had slowly come and go for the past 5 years. I like to call it "recycling." That would have been when I had my last child. I can remember the last time I was skinny, I was 9 months pregnant and 122 lbs! The first 5 pounds came and it was ok, I just had a baby. The next 10 came and we were ok just don't hit 140. Then before I knew it I had reached 189 pounds! At some point I just stopped caring. Well, I care now! I can no longer use the fact that I just had a baby! I am tired of recycling the same 10 pounds every month! I don't want to hear that I wear the weight well. It doesn't matter how well I wear it, that doesn't help me when I am trying to walk up a flight of stairs. Being out of breathe and not being able to play with my kids just plain stinks! I want to be able to to those things!
I know that I am not where I need to be, but now I know how to get there! There is more to life than french fries! I have learned that no one can make you want to lose weight. You need to GOYAAM! There is no other way! There is no sugar coating this process, it is hard and it stinks. The harder you work to get the pounds off, the more you will make sure that they never come back! I made the choice to put the food in my mouth and not exercise now it is time for me to pay the price. I have learned that no one can want this for me, that is why I have always failed in the past! There are months that the weight will come off easily and there will be times when your body says WOAH hold on! You need to learn to listen to your body! I am learning to be patient with my body! I can't expect to lose the weight quickly...that is not how this works!
There are people who can workout 5-6 days a week for hours. I don't have that time. I need to be realistic. With 3 kids and a full time job, I need to learn to balance a fitness routine in with my day to day life. Everyday requires a little tweaking!
When I started on this journey my goal was just to be skinny. I thought of it as just one more diet! This is not a diet, this is a lifestyle change. Do I care if I am a size 6, no! As long as I am happy and healthy in this body that God has given me! Sparkpeople has given me the tools to love myself. They have given me hope. They have blessed with me knowledge. They have given me some of my best friends! There are people in my life now that I love more than anything...they are my Spark Sisters and I want nothing but the best for them. I can't imgaine not having them in my life!
It is now obvious that the scale and I are NOT friends so for now I am done with it! I am no longer going to allow the scale to keep me from reaching my goals! So for accountability I will now be measuring! The tape measure does not lie!!!
7/9/08 Waist 38"
Right Thigh 26.5"
Left Thigh 26"
Right Arm 11"
Left Arm 11.5"
Did I mention that I on 10/19 I ran my first 5K in 39:16! WooHoo! What an amazing moment for this NON-runner!
1/9/09 Thank you to all who nominated me for Spark Motivator. It means the world to me. I am inspired everyday by all of you!
Thank you for taking the time to read this! I look forward to sharing in your journey! Best of luck!
| current weight: 185.0
Member Since: 5/29/2008
Fitness Minutes: 32,841
So here I sit...thinking...and trying to reevaulate my goals for what feels like the millionth time! What are my goals???
My goal isn't to fit into a pair of pants that I wore when I was 18, I am NOT 18 nor do I wish I was! Nor do I want to be this magical size 4. I just want to be me. A happy, healthy and active mom who is happy with her body!
I am currently eating 1200-1600 calories a day.
Again...I don't really want to make this very specific! I have 3 kids and a full time job and I need to be realistic about what I can do daily! Some days I walk on the treadmill, some days I go outside and run around with the kids! It varies from day to day!
I currently live in New Braunfels, TX with my husband and 3 beautiful children 16, 13 & 11
Feel free to add me as a friend if you are on FACEBOOK! I love surrounding myself with Sparkies! It is wonderful accountability :- )
I have read 100's of stories here on Sparkpeople, this is what I have learned...
The ones who succeed don't give themselves the option of failing. Whatever they attempt, they tell themselves they are going to be able to do it. And they keep tying until they figure it out!
DON'T GIVE UP! YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU PUT YOUR MIND TO!