My Yorkie-Poo Kirby
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Hmmm...I always thought that was such a strange phrase. What does it mean? How did you lose "you"? "You" are right here.
But....now...I get it. Ten years and sixty+ pounds later...I get it.
I have lost myself. I look in the mirror and I don't recognize the person staring back at me. "That" is not "me".
How did this happen? How did I let this happen?
Powerful statement right there..."HOW DID I LET THIS HAPPEN???"
Because I can't blame anybody else. But...me!
~Nobody else made me stop working out.
~I didn't "catch" being fat from somebody else, like the common cold.
~Nobody else made me over eat. Lots of lunch and dinner invites, but I chose what I ate and how much.
~Nobody else made excuses for "why"...
I did this to myself. I got lazy... or complacent, and I stopped working out. I surrounded myself with people that would rather go out and eat, than go to the gym. I ate too indulgently, too often, and too much. And then I tried to make myself feel better by making excuses. It has been a tough year, or it's too hot, or it's too cold, or my head hurts, or my leg hurts, or my arm hurts.....or...ENOUGH!
No more excuses! No more reasons why!
If I want change, then I have to make the change...myself! Because...
~Somebody can't do it for me.
~Somebody else is not responsible for MY decisions, and therefore, not responsible for the blame, when it all goes wrong.
~Somebody else is not going to tell me that it is okay to lay on the couch, and watch bad tv, just because I don't feel like getting dressed.
~Somebody else is not sitting here 60 pounds overweight, desperately searching for the person that they USED to be.
Today...I set off on a new "journey" of finding me. The "me" buried under 60 pounds of excess body fat, and poor choices, and a pathetic "I don't care" attitude.
So ready or not "me"...here "I" come....
Goal weight: 150 (and then I will decide if I am happy with that or lose another 10).
Top 10 reasons I want to lose weight:
1) Be healthy and avoid diseases that have plaqued my family, like heart disease and diabetes. (Since originally writing this list, I have been diagnosed as diabetic).
2) Have a more active lifestyle as I get older.
3) Look and feel better in my clothes.
4) Take pressure and weight off of my joints.
5) Set good nutrition and exercise guidelines for my family.
6) More energy!
7) To treat my body the way it is supposed to be treated.
8) To finally see "me" when I look in the mirror.
9) Because I cringe when I get on the scale.
10) Because this is not what I am meant to be!
cardio 5x a week for 60 minutes
strength training 3x a week
walking in the evening (2.2 miles around the 'hood) when weather permits .
I just signed up to do The Biggest Loser 29 challenge.
I have been happily married for 32 years. We have a 15 year old son .
I am a lifelong vegetarian, and I love to cook. I like to create new recipes. So my new "hobby" is creating healthier recipes, not only for me, but for my family as well. I want my son to grow up healthy and fit.
| current weight: 217.8