I'm Dee and I'm 25 years old. I love to read, maybe a little too much! No wonder I need to get active! lol

Well for once in my life I am doing this for myself to make myself happy, healthy, and regain my confidence.

I am determined to succeed!

Okay, so I've decided to post a bit more about myself to explain how I got to this point.

It started when I was 16, I had panic attacks for a few years (Had been in some horrible situations in my ...

I'm Dee and I'm 25 years old. I love to read, maybe a little too much! No wonder I need to get active! lol

Well for once in my life I am doing this for myself to make myself happy, healthy, and regain my confidence.

I am determined to succeed!

Okay, so I've decided to post a bit more about myself to explain how I got to this point.

It started when I was 16, I had panic attacks for a few years (Had been in some horrible situations in my childhood) And I was also incredibly depressed from it.

Due to this the doctor put me on an anti-depressant. Unfortunately they never watched my weight and while on it I ballooned up about 55 pounds. I was 100 pounds when I started, and went up to 155 in about 3 months time.

I had been made to feel that without it, I wouldn't be strong enough to make it through, and so I paid no attention to my weight either until suddenly it was upon me.

I always had a fast metabolism like my father, was incredibly thin, more than I should have been I admit, but was no fault of mine. Suddenly gaining weight when I never had to worry about it before, I had no idea how to eat or exercise after this happened, and being so young I had no idea what to do and became more depressed.

Eventually they put me on something different after I found a new doctor who actually listened and cared. I then started to lose a bit of the weight but continued to fluctuate between 130-140 for the next few years and had no idea what to do with myself.

Now, the past few years I have had health problems including a gallbladder removal and right before they finally took it out I seemed to gain about 30 pounds in the span of 3 months and i did nothing different in my diet or activity.

I thought once the surgery was over I would be free of the pain and bad health but unsurprisingly the pain did not go away, and it turns out I have also had fibroids with it, and the full symptoms, and will eventually need them taken out as its getting pretty bad.

So, if I cannot have a myomectomy it will be a hysterectomy, at 25 years old. The stress is getting to me, making me feel so much worse, but now, for the sake of myself and hopefully having a family one day, I will change my entire life to hopefully one day be able to have children.

I have no idea how diet and exercise can help with that, but perhaps it can help with my self confidence, and eventually lead to a better life, and maybe with luck it wont feel so much like a curse.

Hopefully if I make a change for the better, and meet life halfway, perhaps my luck will change. All I know is I am now doing this for myself and no one else, and I will become a better person for it.