So here we are again, desperate to lose weight and get fit…hmm, I’ve been here before. So what’s going to be different this time? What’s going to make it work this time? I’ve spent the past two years changing my eating habits, working out to the point of exhaustion (not healthy) just to throw it all away! Why? Do I even understand? Well, it’s time to figure it out.

Over the past several years I got myself in pretty good shape, bought a bunch of new clothes and even a brand new ...

So here we are again, desperate to lose weight and get fit…hmm, I’ve been here before. So what’s going to be different this time? What’s going to make it work this time? I’ve spent the past two years changing my eating habits, working out to the point of exhaustion (not healthy) just to throw it all away! Why? Do I even understand? Well, it’s time to figure it out.

Over the past several years I got myself in pretty good shape, bought a bunch of new clothes and even a brand new bikini (it’s so cute). Unfortunately I never got to wear my new bikini and now I can’t fit in all of my new fabulous clothes. I’m back to wearing my plain, drab, but oh so comfy clothes. You know the loose pants with the draw strings and oversized tops. My poor hubby, he’s so loving and wonderful, and hasn’t said a thing about me letting go, but he’s got to be disappointed. Since the weight loss he bought me several Victoria Secret gift cards (with very generous limits), well I can’t fit into those cute little panties anymore, are you kidding me! Nope, nice large cotton briefs for me! So Sexy!

I decided to get back on track this week when I felt like I just can’t feel this CRAPPY anymore! It’s just not worth it. I don’t mean feeling bad just because I don’t’ fit into clothes, I mean physically and mentally crappy. I have both gluten and dairy intolerances, and I eat it, it kills me; pain, bloating, depression. What happens when I don’t eat them, well, I feel great! So if that’s the case why am I shoveling pizzas down my throat several days a week? Why am I bingeing on raspberry filled donuts? I guess I’ll have to rack it up to INSANITY, because I can’t think of why someone would purposely cause themselves harm and pain.

So what went wrong? ME and my OBSESSION! I just don’t believe I was doing it right, and ended up burning myself out. As I stated earlier, I worked out to the point of exhaustion constantly. EVERYDAY! I thought I could lose more weight and get in better shape if I worked out 3 hours a day and only ate 1200 calories. But I didn’t lose more weight or get in better shape, my weight plateaued, I was constantly exhausted, and spent a lot of the time either sick or injured.(I’m still suffering from year old injuries) So, the moral of the story is more isn’t always more, and in my case it was definitely less.

Where to go from here! I decided some time back that I would love to become a personal trainer, and that is still my goal. Even though I may be way off track I still believe in living a healthy and fit lifestyle, and would love to help others. As a matter of fact I’ll be taking my certification exam in a few weeks. I really learned a lot from this course and I think this is helping me change my outlook and why I know I need to move forward into the direction of getting healthy. I learned how much I didn’t know, and how much I had done wrong; under eating, overtraining, poor sleep habits. They say knowledge is power, and now I feel I have some power to be successful this time. Also, I'm not going to get many jobs as a personal trainer if I'm soft and chubby with the jelly from a Krispy Kreme donut on my face! LOL!

Okay, so what am I going to do about it? Well, I guess I’m going to stop feeling sorry for myself, stop making excuses for my stupidity, get off my a$$, pull on my big girl panties and get to it!

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