My favorite picture of me, taken in 2003!
One of my many alias's..".Cat in the Hat" at least once a year!
Here's our Googy Group Picture!
Okay so here I go again only this time I am going to make this work. I am 48 but want to be a kid again and start over. Right! Fat chance that only happens in movies! I am an ART major I have my BA in Art and I took years of schooling off and on because I believed that any schooling was better than none, I was wrong. There are several songs by Martina Mcbride that I can relate to and today I am struggling with depression, wishing I could wave a magic wand and fix ME. I've cried most of the day off and on. I wish I had the answer to my mood swings...I am told it is probably premenapausal or hormones, possibly even a chemical imbalance, so whatever, it doesn't help to stop feeling sad. I am determined to beat this and get myself back in control of the me I have lost because I place all others before myself, my goals and my needs. I hope to dig myself out of the pit I've fallen in. Weight wise, I am not where I want to be, but then again I am not really eatting much either, binging and starving, a cycle I just repeat.
Okay so the happy me needs to return I need to find out my options again and believe I have some! Prayers and hugs help the most.
My new GOAL is to make some NEW goals. I am starting over. I am trying to think of me , tough to do when I do for others most of the time, I have lost a lot, but mostly myself. I do not know who I am anymore.
Take time to be healthy for my sanity! Eatting what I like is usually the healthy choice my husbands eatting is what makes me cave, I am no longer going to cave. I hate the greasey stuff he likes but to make him happy I cook it. NO more!
I was born here in upstate NY, for those of you who do not understand that, that means NO WHERE NEAR NYC. I am infact closer to the PA boarder.
I have lived all over the USA and even for awhile in Germany. I tell folks my mother was a Gypsy!
I have 4 grown young men from my first marriage and a beautifl little girl form my current marriage, which also brought in 2 grown step-children from his 1st marriage. We have His , Mine and ours which with those married into the family totals now 11!
I hope to finish everything on my BUCKET LIst before I kick my bucket, and I hope to help my little girl learn to love life and learning as much as I do!
It has always been extremely hard for me to choose favorites! I simplly like far too many things to narrow it down to one even in each catagory! I guess there are a few favotrites I can list:
Flower= Lily of the Valley
Tree= White Birch
Food= Seafood, mainly crab legs , shrimp and lobster
Sweet treat+ ice cream
and milk chocolate
(LINDT'S my weakness)
I love good books, I love good movies, Preferably, adventure, comedies and dramas-I do not watch anything rated" R"
I love music, Enya is probably amoung my favorites.
I loved school and miss it, and believe in Life long learning!
I am religious and love the Lord and He is my strength and my purpose on this earth is to simply pass His tests and return to Him. I have a strong testimony of the truthfulness of Jesus Christ and the plan of Salvation and I know I am a child of GOD.
As a latter day saint I choose to obey the commandments and follow the teachings of the prophets to the
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