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The Gutstapo

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Yesterday, I bought a size 18 dress for my high school graduation. I worried about acne, making friends in college, and whether I’d ever have a boyfriend.

This morning, I woke up to a size 28 body. Then, I worried about acne, making friends, and whether I’d ever find a husband, and where in the world my 20s went.

In ten years, I have dug the deepest, darkest rut EVER.

When I try to jump out of the rut, my gut, who is the boss of me, grabs me by my waist and slams me back to earth.

When I try to climb out of the rut one leg at a time, the chorus of fat that lives in my thunder thighs swells and shouts, “My name is Charlie! Last name, Horse!” Rather than catch a cramp, I stay cramped, stay put, and in the rut.

When I try to pull myself out of the rut using my upper body, my arms pop out like imitation Barbie dolls’. Unfortunately, instead of bulbous armpit joints, that roundness where my biceps used to be is a concoction a la O’Neal Ron Morris, but instead of Fix-a-Flat, I’ve injected Fix-a-Fry, Fix-a-Plate, and Fix-Myself-Some-Seconds. I know I’m not ready for this jelly.

Yesterday, (the real yesterday, not the decade ago yesterday), I did a jumping jack. It was more like a trampoline jack because when I stopped jumping my rolls kept bouncing. I did a mountain climber that felt more like a ski lift because my butt and thighs avalanched well after both of my feet were firmly on the carpet.


When I look in the mirror, I see a face I don’t recognize, as though time painted tiny cracks in the youth of my face and gravity has been using my chin as uneven bars. There are two chins now (and I had to take out the tweezers on the second one!)

I would like to say that I am a Christian so I am happy, an independent woman so I am content, and an American so I continue to dream, but I feel none of that. I feel adrift. I feel flat, and I feel bitter about feeling like I did everything right and ended up in a place so very wrong.

This is about getting back to a place that’s sweet and just being able to wearing a size that starts with a one.


– Bossy

Member Since: 7/21/2007

Fitness Minutes: 6,973

My Goals:
These are quite simple. I want to be able to put my arms down-- all the way down and not have extra arm in the way (you know, like a kid in a winter's jacket). I want one chin, an easy view of my feet, and the swiftness I remember from childhood. I want to run and not grow weary, and I want a waist of 35 inches. STAT.

My Program:
I want to write about the process of showing my belly who's boss. I think that being creative is the only way to win.

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I have no shame. The truth sets me free.

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I'm learning to love God. I already love FOOD, reading, writing, singing, traveling, and bad puns.

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    Welcome to the 300+team. 300 is such a BIG number but if we persevere, focus and motivate one another we can reach our goals!
    We have so much of life ahead of us and it is so much better to work on ourselves and reach for our goals.
    We can do it-- we are worth the effort!
    All we can do is take it one day, one bite, one pound at a time.
    I am looking forward to supporting you in your quest for better health and a happier future.

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    3058 days ago
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    3058 days ago
    emoticon To Bootylicious/Curvaceous Bodies, Make sure you come to the forums and introduce yourself, We also have a Vday challenge going on, you can still join so check it out in the challenge forum. Be Active, Live Healthy and Most of All Love all of you. God made your body a work of art, appreciate it in all its glory. I'm your Team Leader so feel Free to hit me up anytime!

    emoticon , Sashoi
    3058 days ago
    Just wanted to say hi and emoticon to the 300+ team. There is lots of support and positive energy on this site. Good luck on your journey! Feel free to drop by anytime.
    3058 days ago
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    welcome to the 20 somethings team! we are glad to have you with us!

    3086 days ago
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