Laurel220 I hope you don't mind me adding to what you said about the blood. God said the life is in the blood. The blood gives life. It also brings forgiveness and payment for sin. It cleanses. There is power in the blood.
I have a thought for you...you are sort of artsy, right? How do you see the blood? As a sign of experiencing pain, or a sign of flushing out pain and building anew? I know that sounds crazy, but I want you to see it as powerful blood coursing through your veins, and any blood shed is only the weak leaving you and making room for the strong!