Me now, at 293lbs
my wedding day, weighed 240?
Most of my life my weight has fluctuated i would be skinny then be overweight and so on. When i was 15 years old, i became anorexic. I would only eat 1 meal a day, walk everywhere, i had dance class 3x a week. All my friends were commenting me on my looks and i wasn't scary thin, but i had dropped from 170 to 130 in less then a month. I always thought of my friends comments as motivation, by saying ur looking really thin. Which i loved by really they were concerned for me. A year later, i met my fiance' (highschool sweethearts). i gained 20lbs before meeting him so i was around 150 or so. Right after i graduated from highschool him and i moved in together. July 2006. We were together for 2 1/2 years before i got pregnant with my daughter weighing 190lbs.I think, becasue i felt so comfortable with him i gained the extra weight. Not caring what i put in my mouth. When i became pregnant. I made the excuse that, i have to eat for two. Well that totally came back and bit me later. I gained almost 60lbs in my pregnancy. weighing 242lbs at the end. I had complications throughout my pregnancy, But after my daughter was born, i seemed to gain 20lbs. Most of it again i think was due to bad eating habits.
Since then, I have gotten married and had a second child. My pregnancy this time was a complete opposite no complications and only gain 28lbs. I pre-pregnancy weight was 250lbs, at the end i weighed 278. My son is now 18 months, and i'm slowly going back up the scale. 293lbs. At this moment i feel disgusted when i look in the mirror. I told myself i would never weigh 300lbs, and now i'm just a few pounds shy of that. Now losing the weight is all i think about. I've found myself looking at the calories of things when i grocery shop or eat anything, i'm constantly online looking for ways to lose weight. Losing weight has taken over my life mentally.
My friend, who had a baby almost a year ago, weighed at the end 260lbs, and now 10 months later she has lost 75lbs in 7 months by doing kickbo, kickboxing and weight watchers. She's my inspiration, works full time and has 3 kids, and just got married this month in February.
i lost 21lbs from Feb 19, 2011- April 20? In May found out unexpectedly we were pregnant, pre-weight was 270lbs with #3. I gained 21lbs with this pregnancy.
Now 3months postpartum, i want to lose the weight even more. I started going to the gym April 23, 2012 monday-friday for an hour-90minutes. I do 30 minutes on the recumbent bike and 30 min of speed walking (3.2-3.4mph) on the treadmill, if i can do weights and stretching. I'm breastfeeding so i can't take any weight loss enhancers so to speak, just natural stuff and hoping for the best.
My goals are go be healthy, sexy, and get back my self esteem. I used to never care what ppl thought of me, i loved who i was and felt beautiful. Now, i'm self concious. My goal weight is to get to 160lbs, target weight is 170.
I have cut out pop, drinking water with a green tea bag in it throughout the day and with my workouts. I started going to the gym for an hour- 90minutes 5 days a week, as of April 23, 2012.
I'm trying to drink 2 glasses of cold water when i get hungry or craving something sweet. I love cookies and anything sweet, so thats going to be the hardest. For lunch and dinner, i make myself a big salad with sometype of protein in it chicken or boiled egg, and/or rice with chicken or fish with salad or a veggie.
With being a mom of 3, i sometime find it hard to eat 3, to even 5 smalls meal throughout the day. sometime i'm lucky if i even get a glass of milk in. When hubby works afternoons i tend to eat more, having that second help. When he works days, i barely eat, until dinner, then snack when the kids go to bed. That is my other bad habit.
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| current weight: 282.0