I would like to be half my size and healthy enough to do anything that comes across my path from biking to running to skydiving to having a child. Not necessarily in that order.
I try to eat 99% clean - always free from refined foods, added chemicals and anything in a box. Eating clean helps me manage PCOS and keeps my blood sugar levels stable. It hasn't hurt my weightloss either ;) I manage my blood sugar levels by reducing my carbohydrate intake. It's about life changes in accordance with my body's needs.
I am like a roller coaster, up down up down up down. So frustrating, here is my week according to my nutrition tracker: Mon - Wed - In range. Thursday, over. Friday waaaaaaaaaaaay over. Sat - Sun good. It just stinks because I've essentially blown any chance of a loss by weigh in on Wednesday. At this point I'll be lucky to get back to 217 by then... but I am trying to focus on the actions and not so much on the scale. I'm not giving up though.
I ended up eating when I got home and blew the whole day out of the water. I swear, it's like I need to grab myself and shake myself, or something. I don't know. All I wanted was one good day and I couldn't even do that. I gave into some tempting stuff at work, but then added insult to injury when I continued the bad stuff at home. It is the worst feeling to be aware of what you need to do and how you are sabotaging yourself and not being strong enough to stop it.
I love what you said about self soothing, because that is exactly what I am doing. I have done that for YEARS and obviously even when I was doing well on my journey I still had many bad days where I would use food as comfort and so it is so hard to undo the habit. The binge jar idea sounds good, but I end up not doing the activity LMAO! I really, I need to take a long hard look at myself. It's hard because I know why I'm doing what I'm doing, I know I need to stop, I know the right things to do, yet I don't do it. I am just so scared of what will happen if I don't get it together, because I know that will result in an even larger weight gain.
And you are doing amazing during this pregnancy, and it'll be an adjustment to get to a lower range of calories but I know that you can do it. You are amazing!
You are just so sweet!! I have got the water and walking down, but the food which is most important is still bad. Today I reset my calorie range to reflect a goal of 1 pound per week and it caps me off at 2050 I think LOL. It is crazy to say, but limiting myself to 2000 calories after eating 3000 and up has been challenging but I know I have to do it. So it's like my goal is just to not go over 2000 and today I am like right at it but I am considering today (Tuesday) my first good day. I can't give up and I am avoiding the scale this week, and will be back updating my ticker each Wednesday with the good the bad or the ugly. I am hanging in there my friend, I just hate that this is such a struggle for me... my mind is just food, food, food all the time and I am trying to distract it ha ha.
You are such a sweetie and you always know just what to say. Anyone can say "You can do it" but you always make me think. I swear, I am so sick of saying I'm struggling and gaining, I mean seriously, it's really annoying myself... so what is the thing to do so I stop annoying myself? Oh that's right, start being healthy and losing weight. I realized I fell out of touch with my new favorite healthy foods like spaghetti squash while eating fast food these past few weeks. I am excited to go to the store and do some shopping for good healthy stuff I actually want to eat. I just need to get off my butt and do this... I quit my fast food addiction before and I know I can do it again, I just gotta stop. I knew better than to start eating it that often because I knew this would happen. Live and learn I guess...and I always learn the hard way LOL.