Its time I focus on myself.

I have been through so much this past year, from the passing of my mother to cervical cancer to my own personal scare of finding out I had 2 huge masses/cysts on my ovaries and finding out about it 4 days before my mom moved to Heaven, then battling her loss and making funeral arrangments not nowing what was growing inside me and wondering if I was going to end up with the same battle my mom battled. Looking at my 2 young girls and praying that all ...

Its time I focus on myself.

I have been through so much this past year, from the passing of my mother to cervical cancer to my own personal scare of finding out I had 2 huge masses/cysts on my ovaries and finding out about it 4 days before my mom moved to Heaven, then battling her loss and making funeral arrangments not nowing what was growing inside me and wondering if I was going to end up with the same battle my mom battled. Looking at my 2 young girls and praying that all was benign so they didnt have to go through the loss of a mother and feeling that pain as I had to do.

A week after the funeral, I was on the operating table. I have such a wonderful GYN. He made sure as soon as I was able to understand him, to tell me I was cancer free. He knew how important it was that I know as soon as possible. I could not have asked for a better doctor. I was not even suppost to be his patient....he was not excepting new patients at the time I tried to get into his clinic 9 years ago. I was set up with one of the other doctors in the office, but that first day he walked into the room and I was so happy and thanked him so much for taking just one more. I know God put him in my life for a reason...at that time I didnt know what it was but I do now. He has helped so much with careing for me and helping me understand what my mom went through.

So here I am, starting again, for ME. I need to be healthy and be here as long as possible for my girls. I dont want them to have to feel the same pain I am feeling over the loss of my mother. Its too soon...Im only 32, she was only 52. I see 60yr old ladies talking about shopping with their 80yr old mothers...its not fair! I only got 32 years....not long enough.

I may not be able to have more children, but I want to spend the days I have with the ones ive got...

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