This is the photo that sent me over the edge... top row, second from left. Nice, huh?? Dec 2011
Sept 2012, 9 months and 95 lbs lighter.... Still a ways to go!
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When I started using Spark, I weighed in at a whopping 325 lbs. I lost 150 lbs, and then started getting all kinds of praise from family, friends and strangers who I shared my journey with. (Think - sales people in the "regular" stores who I asked for help to figure out what sizes to wear.) Once they would heard the "big number" and wrapped their head around the amount of time and effort that went into pulling off that kind of success, they would just go on and on. On one had it was flattering and gave me a boost, but on another, it was shameful. I felt my commitment level starting to slip, but figured it was a temporary state. But then... as fate would have it, my father was diagnosed with state 4 Pancreatic cancer, and so my focus (naturally - and without regret) shifted to him.
Unfortunately, old habits die hard, and while I resisted packing on the weight for the first 8 months or so, once it was apparent that we were heading into the "home stretch", the worry got the better of me and I stopped exercising at the gym - and began exercising my "right" to self medicate with two primary sedatives: gelato and egg custard pie. Don't know why these became my "go to's", but there you have it. The last six weeks of his life, and for a good 3 months after he died, I just was in pain, and to heal the hurt.
Within the last 6 weeks, I've moved, we've cleaned out his house, and I've got a fresh perspective on things. Miraculously, I've found the magic "Oh, hell to the NO - we're not doing this anymore!" spark in me, and have slammed on the breaks. I've purchased a Nutra Bullet and am started to learn the fine art of building 70%veggie / 30% fruit smoothie concoctions to help get me back on track. Scale is moving - and I know it would go a heck of a lot faster if I would get off my ass and back in the gym... :) But - I'm heading in the right direction.
Feel free to tag along as I start knocking off the poundage! :)
I want to be able to go to the mall and walk into a 'regular' store and have more than one or two options to choose from. I want to be overwhelmed by my choices! Wouldn't that be great??
Eating really well - trying to get off processed foods (like Lean Cuisines and Smart Ones) - but I am using them to control my portions and count my calories for me. A crutch - but right now - it is working.
| current weight: 231.0