Geez, could my face be any MORE fat?? Taken 9/10/2007, two weeks into my quest for a new me.
The new me... 80 lbs. gone forever! Taken 4/11/08
Before: August 4, 2007 / During: January 3, 2008 - same outfit. I have to take a new back shot!
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BAL_NY is a SparkPeople Motivator!
I have to lose weight, and a lot of it... 100 lbs, to be exact. The reality is that if I don't start doing something about my lifestyle NOW, I'm going to start having serious health issues very soon. I've been lucky thus far, but luck only holds out for so long.
Welcome to my weight loss web site. Thank you for coming on the journey with me.
I wrote that intro on the day I joined SparkPeople. At the time, I wasn't sure exactly how long I'd stick it out. My MO has always been to start out gangbusters then quit 2 weeks in. I *wanted* to be successful, but there was still that little voice inside of me that said "Why bother? You always quit". And you can't change your entire lifestyle unless you're truly ready to *commit* to that change.
Honestly, I wasn't sure.
Happily, whatever switch I needed to flip inside myself flipped. It's as if this is the first time I've actually understood how important it is to take care of myself. I've had a few "off" days where I didn't want to exercise or was craving crap instead of healthy food, but for the most part I've been able to fully commit to being a happier, healthier me and make changes to things that weren't working rather than simply giving up. If I wasn't entirely sure where I was headed at the beginning, now I am.
I'm in this for life. There's no going back to who I was, not ever.
Well. Guess I've been forced to eat my words, haven't I? Life intruded not long after my "after" photo was taken... one bankruptcy that year and a divorce the year after put me right back to where I started - and then some. I'm actually 10 pounds heavier now than when I started on Sparkpeople back in 2007.
I just read what I wrote back in 2008 and wonder how I could have given up like that; why did I take all of that hard work and throw it all away? Oh, I remember how it happened... when your life is crumbling around you, healthy eating and exercise become a "oh who the hell cares" activity. I wish I could have taken solace in my workouts and used them to burn away my frustration and sadness; instead I turned to my old friend food for comfort. No big surprise there.
So... I've been doing the single mom thing for a little over two years now. I haven't started dating - although I'd like to - because who wants to date this? I wouldn't =/
Yeah, yeah, I know. There's someone for everyone and if a guy can't see the beauty inside you, he doesn't deserve you. That doesn't erase the fact that fit women have it a hell of a lot easier than obese women when it comes to meeting men. Establishing a relationship, building a life together... that comes later. I'm talking about first impressions and attracting someone enough for them to want to walk up to you and say hello. That's where the fat gets in the way.
Anyway, time for me to start over, and not just to make it easier to start dating again. I'm pretty damned unhealthy at this weight and I'm not getting any younger. The reality of it is I'm in the same position I was in 2007 but four years older and 10 pounds heavier.
Here's hoping that once again I can find my inner Spark.
I've met my first three goals - to lose 10% of my starting weight (25 lbs.), to get below 200 lbs. and to have a BMI considered "overweight" rather than "obese." Ultimately, I'd like to lose a total of 100 lbs.
Nutritional goals - keep calories around 1200 per day, stop snacking on unhealthy foods at night, lower my wine intake, try to limit "grain" carbs to the earlier half of the day.
Exercise goals - Wow, these have changed since I started, lol. Back then, I was happy with 10 minutes of cardio per day and 5 or 6 strength moves 3x per week. Now, my goal is to burn at least 3800 calories per week by doing 4 hours of circuit training and at least 1 other hour of cardio. I now work out at least 5x per week.
I'm following the food guidelines outlined in Jillian Michaels' book, "Winning By Losing" (well, with some wiggle room). I've tried to eliminate most processed foods from my diet. No white flour, white potatoes or white rice. Whole grains, lean proteins, fruits and veggies make up the majority of my meals.
I'm also following the circuit training routine outlined in "WBL". Right now I'm working out 5 days/week: 4 hour-long circuit training sessions and one day where I do an hour of straight cardio. I sometimes miss a cardio day, but I've moved my workout days around to hopefully eliminate the temptation to skip :)
I'm a 39-year-old secretary and voice actor from NY (the state, not the city). I'm also mom to the world's best 8-year-old and partner to the world's most wonderful man.
| current weight: 256.4