Oh my- you have been through a LOT! Don't be so hard on yourself. I can't imagine how awful it would be to lose your home, let alone your son. It's great you were able to see your grandson graduate in the midst of all this- I know many of us appreciate what he's doing and the sacrifices the whole family has to make.
I think you're absolutely right- you do have to grieve after your losses, and that's not only okay- it's healthy. If you want to start up again I would recommend setting one or two smaller goals for yourself- think back to fast breaks- be it to eat one or two meals at the same time everyday, have an additional serving of veggies every day, walk for ten minutes, etc. Once you can incorporate small changes into your life you can set new goals for yourself.
I hope you have a good support system to help you get through this- maybe look for some sparkteams as well to keep you motivated. If you ever want to talk, feel free to message me.
Your dark cloud will dissipate, you will get through this, and you can lead a healthier lifestyle. Good luck with everything!
Welcome back! You took the first step and maybe the hardest. You admitted to yourself and all your spark friends losing weight is hard and you need help. That's why were all here-To get help, support , and motivation from one another. TOGETHER WE CAN DO THIS. One step at a time. 1572 days ago