Jeff and I in Ohio 2011
Hubby and I on vacation in San Diego May 2007
Our wedding on July 12, 2003
Hello, my name is Carrie and I'm 40.
I have always struggled with my weight. Looking back, even as a child, I weighed more than I should have. It wasn't until I was in high school that I slimmed down some, but even then, I wasn't happy with how I looked.
My thinnest was when I was in my 20's. I was going out on the weekends, working out 1-2 hours a day, and taking diet pills—definitely not the smartest way to get thin, but when we are younger we think we can eat whatever we want and take it off the "easy way." I was also with an abusive man who made me feel fat (even though I was a good weight), so I tried to stay slim to please him. I quickly learned that diet pills and trying to please someone else doesn't keep the weight off for long. I finally left him, but looking too critically at myself stuck with me.
In 1989/1990, I developed Endometriosis and between 1991-1993, I had three laparoscopic surgeries to laser it out. It worked for the most part, but between then and now, I've continued to struggle with the issue, which I know can add to weight problems.
In 1998, I was diagnosed with Carpel Tunnel. I was a phlebotomist, and I was told that I was overusing my arm. The pain didn't go away and finally in 2000, I had Carpel Tunnel surgery and surgery on my Ulnar Nerve. I didn't realize until recently how much that surgery affected me. I couldn't do the things I was used to, and before I knew it, I'd given up on a lot of things I used to enjoy, and started feeling sorry for myself. I felt, "Why bother, I'm just going to get hurt." Now, I realize that it was just much easier to give up, than to get off my butt and do the right things for myself.
In 2003, I got married, and I gained more weight. My mother said I was happy, that's why I was gaining, and though I was happy to be with the man I love and to start a life with him, I definitely wasn't happy with myself. This of course, led to even more weight gain.
Through the years, I tried a variety of pills and even tried exercise for a while, but I always gave up. I'd get more frustrated with myself and try something else, but I'd give up on those, too. Each time, I'd get even more frustrated and angry with myself.
Finally, in 2007, I started Weight Watchers—actually started the points program with a kit I bought off eBay. I never went to meetings, and thought I could lose weight on my own. I was at my heaviest weight of 234, and I lost 25 pounds! Then all of a sudden, I jumped off and couldn't get back on the weight loss wagon.
Near the end of 2007, a doctor told me that my blood pressure was too high, and so was my cholesterol. I was told that I'd have to go on pills if I couldn't get them under control. I was determined to not go on pills, but again I couldn't seem to get the motivation to do what I needed to for myself.
After the Holidays, I realized I needed help. I prayed and prayed and asked for a healthy way to find something that would work. Something I could stick to. That night the E story came on about Sparkpeople.com.
I realized it could be what I was looking for, and joined on January 7th, 2008. Since I joined, I have lost a total of 6 pounds so far. They are the pounds I gained during the Holidays, but it is great to see them gone!
I really enjoy Sparkpeople, and I thank God for sending it to me that lonely night on the couch, when I was wondering how I would ever be able to get the weight off.
Sparkpeople is changing my life, and I am so thankful for all of those who have become my friends, supporting me and helping me through my challenges. I will continue this journey with a new outlook on life. Nobody said it would be easy, but I'm READY and willing. This is what I've needed, and for the first time, I really look forward to the rest of my journey to health!
I want to give a very special thank you to a very special friend Harvest for helping write my story.
Thank you my friend I am so lucky to have you in my life.
starting weight in 08: 234.0
my main goal to get to 150.
current goal 10 lbs each month
eating better more fruits and veggies no more cookies and candy and to excersice
setting smaller goals that I can actually achieve
My name is Carrie I live in the high desert of southern california. you can email my at email@example.com
I currently do cake deocrating and LOVE every minute of it.
| current weight: 201.8