my family, christmas 2008
my husband and best friend rick with me at my cousins wedding... 11/09/08
my favorite kids! mychal 15, conner 6, avalon 6 months 12/25/08
i'm marlee, married to my best friend rick, mom to mychal-age 13 & conner-age 4... i have let myself be consumed by depression, fear and procrastination, which has led to my weight gain... i've finally hit rock bottom and i'm ready to lose some weight... for my self-esteem and to ensure that i will be around for my family... i'm ready, here i go...
that was written on october 11, 2006 here is a little update... on november 21, i am down 10.25 lbs... i am so excited and encouraged and can't wait to see more weight come off... i've learned to love water and walking and vegetables... i'm still watching my portion sizes every meal and i'm trying hard to reach my minimum calorie intake every day... my husband and kids are so proud of me and are now starting to believe that i am serious about changing my lifestyle this time... family is also starting to notice that i seem to be shrinking... what a great feeling! i'm still ready, so here i go....
february 8, 2007... i am down 27.25 lbs... i wish i could bold that sentence and make it huge! it was just 4 months ago that i started and i have stuck to it most of the time... i've had my mini-setbacks, but with the fantastic support of my husband, mom, grandma (family in general), sons, friends, and all my buddies (even strangers) here, i have picked up myself, jumped back into my new life and i'm strolling towards the finish line... thanks for cheering me on! i'm still ready... oh wait, i'm already gone!
december 31, 2008... its been a long time since i've been on sparkpeople... in the year and a half since i've been around, i've had a very high-risk, traumatic pregnancy and gave birth to a beautiful baby girl... avalon elizabeth was born at 36 weeks on june 19, 2008... she is 6 months now and the joy of my world... as much as i love my boys (mychal 15 & conner 6), i never knew that i could love a daughter differently... when my pregnancy started i was back up to 300 lbs and was upset with myself for gaining so much weight back... during my pregnancy my weight went up and down and i finally was able to put on 13 lbs a week before my daughter was born... within 2 weeks of her birth i was down to 275 and was elated... i had to buy a smaller size in clothes and felt really good about how i looked... unfortunately i've managed to gain back 15 of the 38 lbs i lost and i'm mad again at myself... i need to quit this weight gain, so i'm back... i've lost weight before, i know how to do it, i want to do it, now i just need to make it happen...
02/11/09 282 (changed to wednesday weigh-in)
i'll be working on goals of 5 % weight loss... i think my ultimate weight goal is 153, but thats still up in the air...
I am watching my portions/serving size and keeping track of calories... I am also exercising at 3x a week... i'm trying to walk every day and also do yoga/cardio videos daily, plus now i've added strength training...
i'm 37, but keep thinking i'm 38, live in oregon with my husband, sons and baby girl and a dumb dog... i have chronic fatigue syndrome which flares up more often than i like, but it won't keep me down forever...
i love being a mom...
with my kids spaced across 15 years it makes things interesting to say the least... talking to my oldest about drugs/alcohol/sex, listening to my third grader do multiplication and proudly breastfeeding a growing toddler keeps me entertained...
i love being a wife...
my husband is my best friend and my constant companion... i can't imagine what my life would be like without him and i hope i'll never have to know...
i love god...
i am blessed to have a loving god who cares for my family and me and watches over us...
| current weight: 291.5