I realized my pics were all several years old. Here's a May 2012 for you.
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I''m a former fat kid. Okay, at least a chubby kid. Losing my mom at an early age sent me straight for the cupboards and refrigerator for solace. We all have our demons. I spent years running from them. Now I play cards and drink with them, in an effort to better understand them.
I''ve been off and on SP for years now (15? How long has it been around??). My tendency has been to gain weight, freak out, then hyper-obsess about taking it off. Well, what''s a girl to do? I know my tendencies and while I recognize I have the power to change, I also recognize that doing so requires a fair amount of self-acceptance to start with. I am constantly dancing the line to find that sweet spot in which self-love meets my inner task-master...
Welcome to my world.
Ultimately, I want to feel good. I'm pretty healthy, but I want to be proud of my body, not just surviving in it.
I'm trying not to obsess about a number (whether it's weight or body fat %), but I do keep them in mind. Assuming I maintain my lean mass, 148-156 puts me at 20-24% body fat. Aiming for a range sounds more realistic than one specific weight, knowing my tendency to fluctuate. :)
I'm big on exercise. It keeps me sane and though my eating habits wax and wane, I'm a pretty consistent exerciser. I'm currently building a base for marathon training, strength training 3x/week, and doing hot yoga 5x/week.
-When I'm being aggressive, I aim for a 1,000 calorie daily deficit. My goal is to simply maintain a caloric deficit. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.
-Higher protein, lower carbohydrate (without succumbing to fake foods). If my body feels like it needs more carbs, I give them to it.
-Fresh, delicious whole foods. I really try to avoid processed foods, but I was raised on many. At what point is it no longer food??
-Love myself...this is the toughest one for me...
New physician who laughs hard and loves many. I play guitar (badly) and sing (passionately).
If it were just about losing weight, that would be easy. I'd like to learn to love my body and be kind to myself - that's really the hard part.
| current weight: 175.0
Hey there!! Your comment made SP send me an email, and I was curious enough to figure out my login and peek. How are you?? I could use some spark.
531 days ago
Hey there! I hope you're well. I've been MIA. I'm here today & PLANNING to continue to check into SP and be consistent. How have you been?
1225 days ago
Hey Girly!!! How are you doing??
I gotta get back on track, my tummy has been feeling like a balloon lately, its a little painful!
Hope you had a very Merry Christmas!!
1278 days ago
That sounds really good cept I think you will get there a lot faster than me. I weighed in today and I'm up 7 pounds from last week :::sighs::: No amount of exercise can erase over eating. It just p***es me off for lack of a better word!
1428 days ago
It's not so bad - it seems intimidating, but it's doable. I hate the feeling of holding my breath underwater, but I've had it done a few times. Yeah, I'm on the fence about getting a DEXA. It's a lot less radiation than many other everyday things, but at the same time, do we really need to add to our current exposure? For now, I'm going by how I look and feel in my clothes - it's exciting to see the body I'm sculpting start to emerge from the cover of flab I've been hiding it under! :)
1445 days ago