Highest Weight: 240+
Starting Spark Weight: 220
Current Weight: 220
Goal Weight: 140
Lost to date: 0 lbs.
Saying I know everything about myself would be a lie. I find something new about who I am everyday. I am in the process of defining an entire new me, and it's the most fun I've had in a long time. I have tried to lose this weight for my entire teenage life. I am ready to get this horrible feeling out of my life, and replace it with health and happiness. Depression comes easy when you're not happy with yourself. Starbucks holds a dear place in my heart. I know what good music is. I love to laugh. I want to visit a big city. I want to dream something big, then make it come true. I wish I lived in the 60's. I am very much in love. Chocolate makes me melt. I don't know what I would do without my iPhone, and I find that kind of sad, lol. I have a six month old baby girl, and she makes this life undeniably incredible. She is my biggest inspiration, and I want to be healthy for her, and my family. I am very happy with my life, and where I have managed to get to, now to focus on this issue. The people that surround me make me smile, and the memories I have make me grateful.
For as long as I can remember I've been trying to lose weight. It's gotten harder within the last 3 years because I have let it get out of hand. My closet consists of nothing but t-shirts and sweat pants, and I can never turn down sugar. I can't bring myself to exercise like I should, and fried, greasy chicken tenders is my favorite food.
I avoid people. cut conversations short. I stick in the shadows now, and never have fun with anything. this isn't what life is suppose to be. I'm 22, I should be feeling good about myself, meeting new people.. which I once LOVED to do! I somehow stopped caring how I looked.. and that's not me.
There was a time when I was sure of myself. When I knew who I was, and what I was all about. It's weird how this weight can make me so unsure of who I am, or what my goals are in life. I don't want to lose myself. I don't want let my goals slip out of my hands because I can't grasp reality, or get in shape.
I want to be happy, I want to be confident, but most of all.. I want to be me; and I want to have a smile on my face. That's what brings me here, to this point. I have let my health and appearance get out of control, and I'm ready to fix that. I have tried numerous diets, but I can NEVER even get past the first week. I have a problem with grounding myself, and keeping it going. It shouldn't be this hard to take care of your body, it should be my first priority.
I'm getting tired of sitting on the sidelines, I wanna take the stage.
--"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't suppose to ever let you down, will. You will have your heart broken more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take many pictures, take too many chances, live for the moment, and love like you've never been hurt, because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin."
--"Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can."
--"The difference between try and triumph is just a little umph!"
--"The road to success is dotted with many tempting parking places."
--"Those who wish to sing, always find a song."
--"We are who we want to be."
D - is for DETERMINATION
O - is for OVER being fat
N - is for NOT giving up
E - is for-EVER .
I want to stand up, and tell you that I know I can win this battle, and take life back.
**Goals for 2012*
1. Figure out who I am.
2. Meet my weight loss goal of 140 pounds.
3. Gain a stronger bond with everyone around me.
4. Be more patient.
5. Learn not to overreact over such small things.
6. Learn to be more cautious with my money.
7. Make exercise a PART of my life, and not an obligation.
8. Learn not to worry so much.
9. Get use to an appropriate sleeping schedule.
10. Drink at least 64 ounces of water a day.
11. Become a SparkPeople Motivator.
12. Overcome shyness.
13. Have my clothes fit better.
14. Go shopping, and actually BUY clothes.
15. Stretch every morning.
16. Cut out Caffeine.
17. Boost Self-Confidence.
18. Gain my femininity back (I feel like I've lost that since I've gained). 19. Lose majority of goal weight by Minerva Music Festival 2011.
20. Fit into my "goal" skinny jeans.
My name is Ashley. I am 22 years young. I am one of three siblings. I have two other sisters. I am the youngest. I am married, and have a 9 month old sweet baby. Right now, the most important thing to me is getting healthy for myself and my family.
Thank you to all of you Sparkies who have showed me your support. I wish you all goodluck with your future workouts and weigh-ins.
| current weight: 220.0
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2013!!!
Where are ya, Done Girl!? I hope no matter where you find yourself in life, you are definitely enjoying it this birthday!!
All the very best,
1085 days ago
Happy Belated Birthday, Done Girl!
1441 days ago
Happy BELATED Birthday, DONE GIRL
The Cancer girl can be the "LITTLE RED HEN" and do all the work as she has perseverance, but she needs to learn to delegate her work to others. She can get very angry when she does it all and they benefit. She gets along with Scorpio (who must control any relationship he is in but Cancer just lets him THINK he does with her, and with Pisces the Dreamer as she can make dreams come true, Virgo, Capricorn, and Leo the Lion, as she can make him the KING and be his supportive Queen.
Sun in Cancer: You live though your emotions and feelings and can't be reasoned with when you're upset. It's hard for you to separate your feelings from your thoughts. You're mothering, sustaining and nurturing, with a strong attachment to your mother and your home. You have a highly developed protective and defensive instinct about material and domestic security. You feel complete when you're able to lavish protectiveness on your family and you'll do whatever is necessary to establish and maintain that security. You tend to retreat inside yourself when you feel threatened in any way. You're often at the mercy of your moods, which are subject to change due to the atmosphere around you, which you absorb without realizing it. You need to control the tendency to moodiness, intolerance and excessive emotions. You suffer from emotional insecurity until you center yourself beyond your ego/ personality. Everything you do is latent and hidden: no issue is clear or direct, not action is forthright or direct. You are extremely intuitive and psychic and your first instincts are usually right. You're extraordinarily sensitive and fear ridicule. When you're hurt, you may behave in a nonsensical manner and, at times, you can be extremely childish and stubborn. You seek sympathy from others and don't realize how self-centered and selfish you can be. You appear gentle and tranquil, but your inner thoughts are difficult to understand, even for you. You're well intentioned, but emotionally vacillating. You have a deep sense of responsibility to others. Physically, slow energy flow can make you lazy and you'll have poor circulation later in life. Due to your powerful imagination, all thoughts of illness may manifest as illness. You'll suffer from ulcers and digestive problems if you don't discuss things that worry you. You must be first with those you love or you're unhappy, and you keep a tenacious hold on loved ones. You're concerned about what others think of you and can have a great deal of personal vanity about your appearance. You can be quite egotistical and won't joke about yourself. You're neat and clean and dislike any activity that creates a mess. You seek to avoid any type of discomfort at all costs. You're diplomatic, have an excellent memory and love to roam. You seldom fail to achieve your goals even if you have to be manipulative. At times, you may shun responsibility but can be punctual, exact, and efficient as required. You're a master of passive resistance and hate being told what to do or how to do it. You tend to live in "the good old days." As a parent, you're warm and loving, but can be smothering and refuse to let your child grow up. Your effort to keep your family together may actually drive them apart. As a child, you're tender, sweet, loving, helpful, extremely affectionate and easily hurt. It's better to discipline a Cancer child by appealing to the home-loving instinct. Sensationalism can hurt your sex life. You need to add reason and discrimination to your life and cultivate courage to say "Yes" and "No" at appropriate times.
KEYWORDS: protectively, sensitively, emotionally
KEY PHRASE: I feel.
1443 days ago
Belated Wishes for a very Happy Birthday.
Hope the celebration was "DONE" just right!
1444 days ago
Happy Belated Birthday, Done Girl!!!
1446 days ago