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Learning to forgive myself

My name is April and I'm 34yrs old. I'm a SAHM of 4. I have 3 daughters who are JoEllen (8), MaKayla(8) and Amber(5) and Levi (2). I have been married to a wonderful man for 9 yrs. I'm a emotional eater and I need to learn to be healthier.

I'm trying to learn a better way to live. I going to learn to eat in my calorie range and eat more fruits. My eating have been a big downfall for me because I am never full. I think of food from the moment I get up until the moment I go to bed. ...
My name is April and I'm 34yrs old. I'm a SAHM of 4. I have 3 daughters who are JoEllen (8), MaKayla(8) and Amber(5) and Levi (2). I have been married to a wonderful man for 9 yrs. I'm a emotional eater and I need to learn to be healthier.

I'm trying to learn a better way to live. I going to learn to eat in my calorie range and eat more fruits. My eating have been a big downfall for me because I am never full. I think of food from the moment I get up until the moment I go to bed. I wouldn't be surprised if I dream of food. I don't seem to get it right. But I plan to take it day by day and I hopefully will learn from my mistakes.

I plan to workout on my elliptical machine at least 5 times a week for 30mins a day. Also plan on working in some exercise video and strength training.

I know I have succeed!! My children want me to go out and play but I just don't have the energy. I see the disappointment in there eye and it make me want to cry. I truly hate myself for this and I want to change. Another reason I need to change is because my daughter JoEllen has told me several time that she wants to me big like me when she goes up. I don't want her to go through the teasing, snide remarks and all the mean stuff I had go through. I want all my children to be healthy and happy. I hope there will be a day when I healthier and lighter that my children tell me they are proud of me.

I seem to hit a brick wall after I lose so much weight. I loss the weight then gain it back plus more. I think the reason is because I fear what my life will be after I lose the weight. Will I have exercise a lot everyday and never be able to enjoy eating certain foods.

Dear April,

I want to let you know that I am DONE being the Fat Girl!!! I have been overweight all my life and it's time for a change. You have a couple of issues you need to deal with. Writing this letter to myself is one of the ways I plan on dealing with it.

My biggest issue is the fact that My real Father hasn't been around much when I was growing up. I only have one strong memory of the time we spent together when I was young. I was about 2 yrs old and I remember sitting down to supper with my Dad. Any other memory I have of him is when he was spending time with my half sister and brother. Yes, mom remarried and my stepdad adopted me but I still needed him. I only place I felt I belong was at Grandma Archambeau house(Real Dad's Mom). I felt like I didn't belong at Mom house and my stepdad(my adopted dad) always treating his daughter better. I know the only way I could deal with Dad(real) not being in my life was with food. Boy, did I eat.

Second issue is is name calling, snide remarks and the sneaking laughter. I would cry myself so sleep at night wishing that I would lose the weight. This way I wouldn't be called Great Grape Ape or Fatty Fatty two by four April couldn't fit through the kitchen door. It wasn't just my peer group doing this to me but also my sisters. Kids and Adult can be really hurtful to people. People would also say you will never find someone who will love all your fat.

But I'm done being that girl!! I'm going to work at making my wish of being a thinner and healthier woman come true. No more eating because I'm stress, sad, bored or tired. I will learn a new way to deal with my emotions and a new healthier lifestyle.

I forgive you for letting yourself get fat because of the way you felt. But I need to say "Goodbye" and move on. I need to be a good role model for my children so they don't have to go though thing I did growing up.

Bye
April


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Member Since: 8/13/2006

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My Goals:
I want to lose 128 pounds by Sept 30th 2011
I will be a good role model for my children and show them a healthier way to eat.
I want to be a better Mom.

My Program:
1. Exercise at least 30 mins
day.
2. Eat more fruits and
Veggies.
3. Eat less Carbs and Fats.
4. Add more exercise as I
lose more weight.
5. Drink 8+ glasses of water
a day.

Personal Information:
I'm 36 yrs old and a stay at home mom of 4. JoEllen and MaKayla are 8yrs old, Amber is 5 yrs old and Levi is 2yrs old. I have been married almost 10 yrs. I'm moved to Monticello WI almost 10 yrs ago from Salem SD. My email address is apriltruttmann@hotmail.com

I have a blog at http://april03-april.blogspot.com


Other Information:
I like to read, my favorite movie is National Treasure and I like to spend time with friends

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5/18/2010 9:41:07 AM

You CAN do this! You ARE worth it! All that matters is that you are back and trying! Good Luck! emoticon

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3/28/2010 4:53:57 AM

Where are ya, girlie!? I hope no matter where you find yourself in life, you are definitely enjoying it this birthday!!

All the very best,
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11/6/2009 8:26:41 AM

Hi April , l hope your winning ; takecare Gary , emoticon



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