Looking real pale in between infectious diseases... But who cares right? Lol
First time dressed up since surgery. Yep, I've gained 20 pounds since last year at this time.
Max with his coveted donut. He plays with it & I don't have to enterain him. Best $1.63 I spent.
I've been Sparking since June 2012. I lost 60 pounds & gained back 62 after a tough year in 2014. It started off with surgeries, that turned in to failed surgeries, osteomyelitis caused by staph epidermidis (No thanks to Memorial Hospital), I screamed & cried s lot from pain & wish I could have erased most of it.
Now my spine is free-floating, so sitting is difficult & fast-paced walking is quite painful. My degenerative arthritis is eating away at all of my joints whether they've been traumatized before or not. Bone spurs are everywhere the doctors look. Bursitis in both hips & shoulders are up with bone pitting.
And now the doctor is lecturing me on being fat. I started gaining when I got osteomyelitis in December 2014 & have gained the entire 62 pounds again. He just told me last month that he wasn't surprised I gained so much weight while it was impossible to get out of bed.
Although my husband loves me & my fat (we met when I was still 50 pounds down), I don't. I feel lazy, my body isn't doing what I want, and EVERYTHING hurts at the end of the day & the morphine barely touches the pain.
Add to it the opioids I am taking, nerve meds, anti-depressants... I'm a walking pharmacological cocktail.
Time to wake up and get in check again! I'm the only one holding myself back from change!! So now I will give my fat cells an eviction notice and fight them off one by one!
The big start... Changing my eating habits since my body is s bit dysfunctional. And even though I haven't had a smoke in a year and a half, I still want one every weekend. I do drink a little wine on the weekend as a kickback. Gonna have to start tracking those calories too!
So here I go again. I have to have the willpower to say no to what my family is eating & opt for less carbs & fattening meals. Ugh!
-Lose 50 pounds (done)
* Lose another 30 lbs
* 15 pounds at a time
-Work out daily
-Healthy eating habits
-Bring down my BP(done)
*Degenerative Disc Disease
* Degenerative Joint Disease
- Ventricular arrhythmia
- Tendon replacements ongoing
-I am working out in some way, shape, or form EVERY day.
-Strength training 3x/week
38 years old
I am NO LONGER single and trying to enjoy it. Getting my disability settlement has been a great buden lifted
from me and my parents who are now retired and living with me. They carried my expenses for 4 years, so now I do everything I can to pay them back every day.
I have osteoarthritis, degenerative joint and disc diseases, migraines, fractured neck, nerve, muscle and tissue damage, IBS, and lower back issues from when I broke my back about 19 years ago.
I fight depression on a daily basis and have been in a very ugly place for years. I hope this program will help me out of the abyss. (It has so far! 10 months and counting, but still struggling with large bouts of depression, but I feel like there MAY BE light at the end of the tunnel).
I am NEWLY on disability, an avid reader, and have led a sedentary lifestyle for the first 3 of the past 4 years. Since June 2012, I have been moving and shaking almost every day and am damn proud of that!
I have quit smoking, kinda quit gorging on food, and now am getting my weight under control. (Lost 50 pounds as of March 2013 & am working on the next 30!)
I am a hazard to myself most days, but am trying to keep moving through the pain. I am accident-prone. I can build a house and not break a nail, but make me shuffle paper and I can break an ARM! HAHA
And I love an emotionally unavailble man. Go figure. So the next man I date had better have it all together!
| current weight: 290.0