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This is my spark of insanity because losing weight has never been so me! Hi! My name is Angie (spoken like I am at some support group meeting) I have rewritten this page several times since joining back 2007. I keep bits and pieces of it to remind me of when i was at my lowest. I've been through some up hill battles but I am still standing. When I look at my weight as a number it seems like I haven't been anywhere or made any difference, but I know different. I've tried on my own and lost 50 pounds to only gain it back again.. I've done band surgery to only have it removed a year later and gain back the 100 lbs I lost with it and add on an auto immune disease for my trouble! What a prize I have won! Its like the universe said thanks for playing but you're meant to be fat! I guess I could give up and say you win except I believe I was meant to be more than that! I started spark way back when to try and lose weight. I wanted a family and my weight was getting in the way, or so I thought. I saw all the drs and none could really give me an answer about my infertility except that it might be my weight. My husband and I tried for YEARS (15 to be exact) and never once did we get pregnant. I thought it had to be my weight. Well out of the blue, the clouds parted and GOD blessed us with a pregnancy, 9 months later we have an ADORABLE little boy. This is it we finally have our family we so desperately wanted, except we wanted more. We started trying right away and boom pregnant again. Our 2nd boy was born 3 weeks after our 1st turned 1 yr old. We are so happy and exhausted, we are living our dream. I watch my babies grow and play and I cant help but to think mommy isn't gonna be around to watch them grow up and have babies of their own. It hits me like bricks every time I think about it. I want to be able to roll around on the floor with my kids and play with them as much as they want, or go on walks and enjoy the outside but I can't. So here i am AGAIN.
For years I knew I needed to change but I let myself get the better of me and I didn't allow myself to change. Well it’s time for a revolution; I demand freedom from this curse! I am tired of struggling through everyday life, I am tired of not even wanting to go out and enjoy life. I am tired of being afraid of people staring or of going to a restaurant and worried they don’t have chairs and I wont be able to fit in a booth. I am tried of doctors using my weight as an excuse. I want to be there for my kids. I want to be the the best mom I can be, and most importantly.... I am tired of not being me! I am tired of being FAT! I want my life back. I want to give my husband and kids a better me.
I am a military spouse and its one of the hardest things I've had to do in my life. I can pull strength from it and realized I can do what I set my mind to do. I've done it before with multiple deployments, with surgery and life's curve balls. I am strong, I am Army wife strong! I CAN do this!
-Use Spark everyday!
-Log my food! Even if I go over my limits, logging my food is a good habit to keep me going and always aware of what I am eating... No boredom snacking! Which is another one of my goals...
-Don't use food as a mechanism for boredom or stress.
-Be forgiving! If I go over my food limits or didn't exercise, try harder next time. Don't get angry at yourself.
-Exercise! Even 5 minutes of squats, walking, cleaning dancing..anything! Something is better than nothing :)
My Program is going to be very simple...START! If I can get into the habit of using Spark everyday, that alone is a huge step in my journey. The tools are here, I just need to use them. I need to start out with baby steps and work my way up or actually down, in pounds that is! haha
I like to craft. I have dabbled in a variety of things but by far my favorite is paper crafting. I have a cutting machine that cuts patterns created by talented people that I get to put my own spin on. Files range from simple cards and tags to 3d boxes, bags and decor.
Secrets of Success
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| Pounds lost: 9.2
Welcome to team 300+
1087 days ago
Good job on your weight loss. Sending love, support and encouragement your way.
1104 days ago
Just dropped by to say - Hi. and welcome you to The “Chair Exercise” Team
Welcome to the most friendly, most supportive team in SparkPeople land!! - Please feel free to jump in and join in the message boards. It has been proved that people who contribute to message boards and blog regularly lose more weight, more easily than those who don’t, so come on in.
It is a great place to be and you will find lots of friends, ideas and links to help and support you at all stages on your journey.
I hope you succeed in all the goals you set.
Enjoy the journey
Hi from Australia
Ann (Co-leader Chair Exercise Team, and ~Indygirl Challenge)
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1807 days ago
to the Spark Fresno Team:
Please check out the TEAM PAGE, There you will find information about everything we have to offer as a TEAM. Including Meet & Greets each month and we try to plan other fun activities. So come JOIN in the fun and see YOU on the MESSAGE BOARDS. YAY!!”.
We are here to help encourage and motivate each other. Weight loss is not a journey we do well when we are all alone. Success comes when we flock together.
Most Importantly, Have Fun, Live and Love Life.
2072 days ago
Hi My Friend!
Thanks for the update on how you are doing. Liquids make things easy, not much to think about. I am just starting soft foods today. A little uncomfortable but doing well. Definitely not eating what I used to, but also being careful not too. Also making better choices (I think!). I know it will feel different when we have our first fill (week 6). Then we may feel uncomfortable.
I am so happy with your weight loss! Isn't it a wonderful feeling? I dropped quite a bit and am now slowing a little. I don't want it to slow, but as long as I don't reverse, I will be happy! I was told a lot of banders gain, because they go back to eating badly. WE WONT! Right!
We will have to be careful of that. No use back tracking when we did this to help us make headway.
Anyhow, keep me posted.
2245 days ago