Start from the top and go to the bottom - you can see where my journey began (well after "traveling" down my path for 16 months.) I update along the way, with the latest update written on June 2, 2012. Happy Reading - and let my journey inspire yours. Not sure where the quote came from, but 'NEVER GIVE UP, NEVER SURRENDER'.

WRITTEN SOMEWHERE AROUND DECEMBER 2010 - It's been about 16 months that I have been maintaining my 50 pound weight loss, 30 pounds shy of my ultimate goal. ...

Start from the top and go to the bottom - you can see where my journey began (well after "traveling" down my path for 16 months.) I update along the way, with the latest update written on June 2, 2012. Happy Reading - and let my journey inspire yours. Not sure where the quote came from, but 'NEVER GIVE UP, NEVER SURRENDER'.

WRITTEN SOMEWHERE AROUND DECEMBER 2010 - It's been about 16 months that I have been maintaining my 50 pound weight loss, 30 pounds shy of my ultimate goal. In January 2009, I began my journey to a healthier me. By July 2009 I had hit 162, down from 212.5. But my highest that I know of was 219. I was a woman who was severly lacking self confidence. During the beginning of my journey I was able to dig deep enough to recoup some of that self confidence. I had found enough to sign up and compete in my first sprint triathlon, which took place on September 13, 2009. I did it along side my very cherished Sister-in-law, Jeanne. We began our journey side by side and we achieved this very powerful achievement together. She was so implemental in me feeling strong enough to take on my journey and continue it. Lately I have been feeling a deep fear of gaining this weight back. You'd think that would be reason enough to take my journey to the next level, but I was battling against an equally powerful fear of achieving my goal. Why is achieving my goal so frightening? That is something I continue to explore. I am digging deep into my heart and soul to understand it. I have realized over the last year that although I had 80 lbs. of physical weight to lose I was carrying around much more emotional weight. I'd venture to say closer to 200 pounds of emotional weight needing to be shed. I have come a long way, physically and emotionally and in the grand scheme of things the 30 lbs. I have left are not terribly a lot. The emotional journey is much more difficult. It requires that I dig deep and try to find out why my weight is controlling me. Why I struggle to take control of it. Until right now, I had been letting my fears stifle my progression. I have come very far. I have made healthy changes that are lasting. I still exercise 4-6 times per week, drink 8 cups of water daily, make healthy decisions, among others. But I have slacked in journaling my food, strength training has fell by the wayside, I indulge in treats a little too often and I overdo food in general. So, how do I overcome my fears?? I continue to explore myself and my emotional connection to food. I try to understand and eliminate my fears. I take my exercise up to the next level and I make healthier decisions more often. *** DECEMBER 31, 2010 - UPDATING MY INTRO NOT NECESSARY - ALL THE SAME SUCCESSES AND STRUGGLES REMAIN THE SAME, BUT 2011 IS A NEW YEAR AND I STARTED TO REGROUP LAST WEEK - DIDN'T WANT TO WAIT UNTIL 2011. SAME 30 POUNDS NEED TO BE GONE AND MY HEALTH REMAINS VERY IMPORTANT. I focused on training for my 2nd triathlon which my husband, John and I did together, on July 18, 2010. This was his first TRI and it took place on our 23rd wedding anniversary. I continue to remind myself that I am worthy and that with every step I take I am that much closer to achieving my ultimate goal, being healthy, physically and emotionally. February 9, 2011 - the journey continues - little changes equals long term results. I won't give up.

UPDATE: September 14, 2011 - apparently my fear of reaching my goals remains - I love rereading my intro, it reminds me of where I was and where I remain. I continue to struggle, but not give up. I know I have fallen back on some old bad habits, but I am aware and trying to move in a healthier direction. I just completed my 3rd Triathlon - again with my SIL, Jeanne (Jeanlecuy). It was great. But it was my hardest thus far. It's proof that the slips that I have had are impacting my health. I won't give up - I will continue to explore the meaning behind my struggles and I will reach my weight goals. More importantly, I will reach my SELF-ESTEEM goals - I will be healthier, I deserve it!!!

UPDATE - June 2, 2012 - Again, I read and reflect and realize that I am still traveling down the same path. I don't think at present it's necessarily the best path for me, but it's MY path. I am CHOOSING to be on it. The only way to change my outcome and dissolve my fears is to do something about it. I need to change my path a little. I need to veer off from my "comfort" zone, which really isn't comfortable, yet I guess comfort trumps fear of change. Or maybe it's fear of failure or fear of success. Again, the fears remain and what the fears are remain and I continue to explore them to try to alleviate them. So, what's in my future?? What am I going to do about changing my path? I'm not 100% sure - I need to do a little more thinking. But I DO KNOW that I truly have not given up!!! I still ran a 5k this spring and have already registered for my 4th Triathlon (August 19), A century bike ride (September) and another 5k in October!!! I smile at my challenges today, because I may not be making the progress I want, but I still see how far I've come. Not selling myself short, don't you either!!!


1/16/09 - 212.5
1/23/09 - 208
2/1/09 - 204.5
2/8/09 - 202.25
2/15/09 - 201.75
2/22/09 - 201
3/1/09 - 196.5
3/8/09 - 195
3/15/09 - 193
4/14/09 - 186.5
5/5/09 - 182
6/11/09 - 172.5
11/09/09 - 161.0
12/10/09 - 159.5
12/28/09 - 162
1/21/10 - 161.5
5/5/10 - 156.5
12/30/10 - 159.5
2/3/11 - 159.5
3/11/11 - 158
8/20/11 - 163.5
9/9/11 - 162.0
1/1/12 - 167.5
1/11/12 - 167
1/18/12 - 164
1/25/12 - 163
6/1/12 - 166

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