This is me after the first two weeks (almost). Weight loss of 8 lbs.
My daughter and I on her prom night.....she is wearing my prom dress!
Hello, My name is Christina and I am 38 years old and officially obese. Everyone in my family, out of being nice, always says,"you're not fat." But it is obvious when I look in the mirror and at pictures of me, I don't recognize the person looking back.
I was always thin in school, too thin at times. When I got married, I got pregnant on our honeymoon. My wedding pictures are the last thin pictures I have of me. That was 18 years ago.
I don't hate myself, I just don't like looking at myself. I like me actually, and usually everyone around me likes me. Nobody is mean or condescending toward me. Usually people think the best of me.
I can handle the truth, I just wish that people would be honest. Okay, maybe not brutally, but I want the truth when I'm ready and ask for it. I am pretty sure that people think I will just break if they say something negative. I won't, even if I do cry a little.
I am on my own in the weight loss thing. I don't really have any support or encouragement. I battle with depression from time to time. If I don't see results in one way or another within a week or sometimes two, I tend to fall back on my old habits.
My Mom says,"All you need to do is maintain." I do that just fine. My friends say, "Girl, Women come in all shapes and sizes and they're all good, just be healthy." My husband says, "Looks don't really matter that much to me, if you want to lose weight just cut back a little." Easy for him to say, he can lose 10 lbs. in a week by cutting back. I just get hungry and angry and don't lose a thing.
Both sides of my parents families are mostly obese and struggling with diabetes and heart issues. I see myself following in the same direction if I can't change my habits. I want to set a better example for my children.
I am an emotional eater. When I'm sad, when I'm stressed, when I'm angry, when I'm frustrated, those times are the worst. But hello....I'm a married, homeschooling, stay-at-home Mom of 4! When am I not sad, stressed, angry, frustrated, or depressed!
I do have avenues of exercise available to me. I have a gym membership I haven't used in months, a new/used bike that we were supposed to take out on family rides together that has only been used twice. I live in a nice neighborhood with sidewalks, but hardly ever walk.
I do love to garden and scrapbook and paint. I love crafty things. I enjoy canning, cooking, and baking. I also enjoy decorating and redecorating!
So now I am joining Spark to hopefully help find the way for me to lose this weight and like the person staring back at me again.
First goal is 20 lbs lost. Then go from there to eventually 75 lbs. I would like to be at 150 by October of 2010.
I am starting with changing my diet first. Mainly watching my calories and trying to stay within the guidelines for nutrition. I am not denying myself, just changing portion size and watching the calories. I am working towards moving more. I would like to be doing some sort of exercise 3 times a week to start. I find I need variety and enjoy many things. I need to work around my family and their needs. I also am giving myself rewards for smaller goals. The first is a pedicure after 20 lbs. lost.
My name is Christy, I am 38 years old and a mom to 4. I live in Dayton, Ohio. My e-mail address is email@example.com
I am a stay-at-home mom and homeschool my older two kids. I enjoy crafting, baking, decorating, redecorating, painting, and scrapbooking.
| current weight: 218.0