Wide .. I wanna be narrow .. Not this "Thick".
Hi , I'm Amber & I'm looking to lose about 50 pounds .. maybe more , I wanna be thin but I wanna be toned as well. In October I was a whopping 253.9 =/ & through eating A LITTLE more sensibly & working out twice a week ( LAZY ) I'm now down to 235 , says my Wii Fit LOL & that weight is as of 2/2/11 .
YAYAYAY SOO 2/28 .. I've been working out for about 1 week & a half & I'm now down to 226. Almost in the 2TEENS. I'm excited , soon I won't need no more stretch denim :)) .
3/28 - GRRR. I was at 220.6 then being as going to the city for two weeks .. my eating wasn't as good .. & exercising was only happening 3 times a weeek. So I'm at like 227. Back on track though LUCKILY & finally found my GYM BUDDY :) So that should be a good motivation for me.
4/1 - OMG ! So this weeek ( so far ) .. I've beeen reallly goood ! I've been working out each day for atleast an hour , two hours at most. JOGGED FOR 20 MINUTES NO BREAK .. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE ! & eating extremely well, and drinking basically water , & maybe the occasional cup of Coke Zero Cherry .. but I hopped on the scale this AM & it said 221.8 .. I BASICALLY BACK TO WHERE I WAS. Which is really goood. That weight loss really motivates me to keep going .. I rewarded my self with size LARGE leggings , & some medium sized shirts ( I was XL shorts & LARGE shirts , my weight seems to keep closer to my body , & my legs are my bigger area .. along with my ass & my breasts. So I'm fortunate in that aspect ) . I'm just excited to see what a few months of this will bring me !
4/4/11 - 219 BABY :) I'm in theeee 2teeenss ! YAY ME . So 2 hours of cardio a day & strength training 4 times a weeek .. has a GREAT incentive. My energy , my clothes fitting better .. its just a great feeling , I hope by next Sunday to be close to the 200's ( single digit ie; 209 ). & when I get to 199 , or in ONEderland.. I've already picked out my reward of a gold chain :) with butterfly pendant .. & in two weeks ... my reward for HOPEFULLY being in early 200's ( ie; 206 ) is my hair done , & colored .. & I already made the appointment so its like I have to do it.
So 4/17 .. My weight has been flucuating alot.. but I've been working out the same.. if not more. Maybe I'm gaining muscle ? Point is .. I'm at 218 :) Not to much less than last time .. but ANYTHING is better than nothing. & the best thing is I FEEL GOOD . Especially after a workout, thats when I always feel my skinniest haha.
4/19 .. The scale says 216 .. I used to be about 40 lbs more than that .. I should feel wonderful and accomplished but I don't .. I never felt like I was that fat .. You know ? I guess I was on planet earth all those times I got on the scale & it SCREAMED something more than 250 .. I've ALWAYS felt beautiful, thats the number one thing people hate about me .. I have so much confidence , its unbelieveable. Maybe my confidence is what held me back from believing I was this size .. But I'm 216 now. 16 lbs away from my mini-goal ! I just can't wait for the scale to say 199 , I dream of it . I just wanna be in the 100's , that will really show me how hard I've worked.
4/20 I really cant wait to be out of the 200s , I feel like two people sometimes , I know I've lost quite a few pounds but I have more to lose. I jog, I run, I walk, I elliptical & Zumba// lets not forget strength train. All ina weeks time. Everyweek. I just feel like by June, I WILL BE IN THE 100S. NO QUESTION, NO DOUBT IN MY MIND.
4/26 .. 213.4 :) I used started a HIIT program, tooo make me loose more fat.& I love it .. its amazing.. its hard but I ENJOY the challenge. It's way more fun then doing the same boring glides on the eliptical for 60 minutes. I hope to see some real good results with this !
6/8/11.. today I got on the scale & it was cheering 193.6! I'M SO HAPPY. I'm in the one hundreds & everyday I have my friends & familiar faces telling me I look smaller everyday. Which makes me feel great, it feels as if my hard work is finally paying off. Working out intensely 7 days a week, sometimes twice a day.. is tough. But soo worth it. I have jeans I bought about 3 years ago .. that never really fit .. & they're almost too bigg. I'm constanty pulling them up, which is good. And now as I workout, I think .. how can I makee this harder? Can I jump higher? Sprint faster? Lunge deeper? & I do it.
1/24/12 .. so it's been a LONG time .. I did in fact get down to the 180's .. by July, but then on the 4th my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer.. and my life has spiraled out of control, well it did. I want to think of it as the past. Within the last 2 months I have come to better coping skills, and realizing I cannot change what it is permanent, but focus on changing the possible. And that's what I'm doing . I'm not sure of my weight..why? because, I know suffer from Bullemic tendencies .. not eating, binging, purging, obsessive-compulsively weighing my self. So, I had my mom hide my scale, and it helps .. alot. I'm trying everyday to now fight this. And I don't want to blame my dad for his illness making me do this to my self, because it's my fault. I stopped working out, got on the scale, and it was over. I only gained 2.4 lbs .. in the beginning, and then I started not eating, and then eating for 10, then throwing it up. The last weight I have memorized is 217.. :( .. I don't know how I could possibly do that to myself? It makes me so upset, I never would harm myself; but it was almost as if I felt no control over the situation. Everyday is a struggle in my household, but I'm sooo much better each day. I've enrolled in school, and a kickboxing class, plus I do turbofire each day. I plan to weigh myself within the next month, when I'm comfortable. I'm just happy that life almost feels normal now, no more crying .. no more pitying myself. Life gives you huge obstacles, everyday. And , its really only in your hands to change it, deal with it or negatively react. And my only options are, changing & dealing. Also, I appreciate everything from you guys in your messages. You're all so motivating, and I can finally stay on the right track.. because I need to love my self, for me & my family.
My WISHFUL THINKING goal is 140.
| current weight: 236.0
LOL - I wish I could say it was easy to lose the 6lbs but I think I actually worked harder than if I'd done it the old fashioned way! How are you? xxx
1617 days ago
"Beautiful Woman Award! I think you're beautiful inside and out."
1617 days ago
AND TO SPARK! YOU HAVE DONE AN JOB WORKING TOWARDS YOUR GOAL. YOU HAVE PUT IN ALOT OF HARD WORK AND IT SHOWS. KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK, YOUR DOING A JOB AND YOU LOOK
1845 days ago
Comment edited on: 6/10/2011 10:18:08 AM
Congrats on taking the next step to reaching a healthier you by getting active with SparkPeople - it's a great community, wonderful resources and fantastic support. You're off to a great start already, just by posting here!
Please check out the SparkTeams - I think you will find a lot of others 'just like you' including many with the same challenges, circumstances and goals. And once you join teams, everyone on that team will know about your blogs - I'll make a point of going to your page this morning to read at least one so hope that helps you feel more 'seen' and welcomed. You can choose SparkTeams by age group, lifestyle or interests, geographic location or several other ways.
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1845 days ago
Hey! You answered a message board post I put up about you "skinny hour". Lol. It made me laugh. I added you as a spark friend. hope you're well x
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