ALIZECRISSY143  
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this was v-day....i placed deja's stroller infront of me so i wouldn't see my body





this was the super bowl. i didn't feel i was this big. this was the pic that did it for me





i just said oh it's the pregnancy fat, but after giving birth i was like oh ya i am fat...



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i'm a 25 yr old stay at home mom. i'm gettiing married next year....i used to be really thin and sporty but when i had my first child i was 19 and gained almost 100 plbs ....i lost some and gained back because of my depression i turned to drugs ( weed ) to try to forget about how i look and feel...but if anyone has ever smoked you know there are munchies. when i smoked alone i never ate but never really felt better either ...but when i smoked with other smokers we would eat and eat and eat.... ...
i'm a 25 yr old stay at home mom. i'm gettiing married next year....i used to be really thin and sporty but when i had my first child i was 19 and gained almost 100 plbs ....i lost some and gained back because of my depression i turned to drugs ( weed ) to try to forget about how i look and feel...but if anyone has ever smoked you know there are munchies. when i smoked alone i never ate but never really felt better either ...but when i smoked with other smokers we would eat and eat and eat....
so between pregnancy, drugs, and self mutalation i have sooooo much to lose if i wanna live long enough to take care of my grandkids....




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Member Since: 4/28/2009

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i just want to get through today...and make at least 5 good chioces...

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i am trying to deal with a mental issue....and physical issuse by trying to gain my sanity back...

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RYANSMOMMY58
4/30/2009 10:05:53 PM

I definitely needed help from someone else. I thought I could handle everything on my own but after a while I realized it was only a thought, and I was getting nowhere by myself.
My doctor put me on prozac which helped the depression and anxiety alot, but when I was pregnant I decided to stop taking it and I have been alright since then.. I think seeing how I felt while I was on the meds helps me to be okay now? I don't know if that makes sense but that seems to be the way it went..
I was supposed to go talk to someone but it wasn't something I was able to do. I wish I had and I still probably will once I have the means to get there.



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RYANLEEV
4/30/2009 6:35:38 PM

Hi!! I'm glad you found SparkPeople - it is such a great community and it's so comforting to realize that we are not alone and that all the things that we are feeling about ourselves and our lives are normal - other people feel those things too!! I love helping people and I am glad that I helped inspire you - if you ever have any questions or just need someone to listen, I'll be here. I know you can be the person you really want to be!! Hang in there and keep smiling!! :)



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RYANLEEV
4/30/2009 1:38:18 PM

Hello and welcome to the 20-somethings with 100+ pounds to lose group!! You have joined a great team - please feel free to ask any questions you have, post often, participate in the challenges, and have fun!! Good luck and best wishes in your journey to becoming a healthier new you - we hope to see you along the way!!

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NATASHA_D1
4/29/2009 7:34:06 AM

I completely agree Shanmarieh, you are beautiful and you have to tell yourself that each and everyday, you are beautiful and worth it! I also found for me not to put my weight up but putting up the bar for lost pounds and logging all foods, right down to the coffee makes you feel accountable and you visually see all you eat-helps to give you guidance. emoticon
You are in the right place, I love sparkpeople and I tell all who will listen about it.



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SHANMARIEH
4/29/2009 12:41:06 AM

You found a great place to start taking control of your life. I love sparkpeople! Be sure to journal your food and workouts and you'll have great success!
You are a beautiful girl, congrats on your engagement! emoticon



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