You made a great decision in signing up for Sparkpeople. I like that you are DETERMINED. Good, clear, self-supportive idea. Check out the resources available on Sparkpeople. It will seem overwhelming at first. Just take a deep breath, take a step, take another step. Pick out a few tools to use. I'd recommend the Nutrition and Fitness Trackers. Choose a Spark Team or two to join based on your own goals, interests, hobbies, whatever. The support you give and get with Sparkers is awesome. Above all, Enjoy this journey that you're beginning. Good for you!