Tim and I with the kids at Brad and Katies Wedding....Dec.31.12
Here I am back again! My name is Darlene and yes I am Addison's Nana...Addison is my little grand daughter and she is my joy and my inspiration for many things I do in my life ...I have been on Spark people several times and have success for short periods...but life happens and I lose myself and gain the weight back...I heave learned the journey to health is not straight forward, there are lots of ups and downs and factors involved...the most important thing is that I never give up.
I have a long way to go...but I realize even starting Spark people again makes me "feel" better...the thought that I am taking care of myself everyday instead of abusing myself with neglect is comforting... I am starting this journey Jan.01.13 at my highest weight ever 274 pounds...
( update April 26.13 I am 242 pounds)
( update July 03.13 I am 255 pounds)
( update Oct.07.13 I am back to 274 pounds)
Regardless of the roller coaster ride...I am NEVER GIVING UP on myself and my dreams of health and wellness.
I am married to a great guy, Tim, he is a firefighter captain here in Kitchener Ontario Canada, we have 2 little doggies, Holly and Casey. I have a wonderful family and lots of great friends who have watched me yo-yo for years...and who have accepted me wherever I was at whatever weight...for this I am grateful.
I work full time as a child protection worker for Family and Children's Services...this is a very demanding field with lots of stress, which does not help! But through meditation( haha NOT medication but it might help too) and some other skills I am learning to deal with it...
I have suffered multiple losses in my life... the greatest of which was the death if my oldest child 15 years ago, she was 18 when she died unexpectedly from a very rare disease....I believe I coped with all the pain and grief by eating....but looking back the eating never made me feel better....only in the brief moment and then I felt worse and became more unhappy and unhealthy creating a vicious cycle which I must break...
SOOO here I am at the bottom of the mountain ready to climb to the top AGAIN... I am confident this time I will do it. My long term goal is to have 100 pounds off my body by the time I turn 53....My short term goal is to get through this day....and then another...and another...I can do this, I know I can , I just need to remain focussed and start my days here and end my days here reflecting upon my emotional eating and my successes....
for me losing the weight would change my life in many ways... it would give me the ability to do so much more....I am not sure if anyone knows what I mean....but at times I feel this extra 100 pounds on my body is literally burying me alive...without it I would literally be lighter but emotionally lighter and there would be freedom...
Thank you to all who have inspired me on here and who have taken the time to welcome me back "home"...I look forward to making new spark buddies and sharing the journey to health with like minded people.
Darlene AKA Addison's Nana.. :)
to live life to the fullest , be active and healthy...
-START 274 (Oct.07.13)
-264 ( Oct.14.13)
track my food, learn more about food combinations, exercise more, live each day to the fullest...
...I live in Ontario Canada..
..... I am a wife, mother, sister, daughter, friend, grandmother, social worker, singer, neighbour....lots of things! But I am not thin...not yet....I have 2 little dogs Casey and Holly. I love camping ( we have a summer trailer we enjoy) I like watching movies, meditation, playing guitar, angels, turtles, bunnies , lighthouses....AND most of all I love my family and friends and enjoy just spending time with them whenever I can!!