Here I am back again! My name is Darlene ...I have been on Spark people several times and have success for short periods...but life happens and I lose myself and gain the weight back....the last time I was on I was doing it for my grand daughter....I realize as much as I love her this is something I NEED to do for myself...no one else....for me alone and I need to take it one moment at a time...

I have a long way to go before I am "medically" in the safe zone....but I realize ...

Here I am back again! My name is Darlene ...I have been on Spark people several times and have success for short periods...but life happens and I lose myself and gain the weight back....the last time I was on I was doing it for my grand daughter....I realize as much as I love her this is something I NEED to do for myself...no one else....for me alone and I need to take it one moment at a time...

I have a long way to go before I am "medically" in the safe zone....but I realize even starting Spark people again makes me "feel" better...the thought that I am shrinking everyday instead of getting bigger is comforting... I am starting this journey Jan.01.13 at my highest weight ever 274 pounds...
( update April 26.13 I am 242 pounds)
You will see by my pictures I have yoyo dieted for years , I have every size from 12 to 26 in my closet...enough already!

I am married to a great guy, he is a firefighter captain here in Kitchener Ontario Canada, we have 2 little doggies, Holly and Casey. I have a grown daughter and a little 2 year old grand daughter, ADDISON ( my joy)...I also have 3 step children, all grown and Angela Tim's daughter is expecting identical twins sometime in June 2013!! SO at that point I will have 3 little grand daughters...yes the twins are girls!!! SO excited...

I work full time as a child protection worker for Family and Children's Services...this is a very demanding field with lots of stress, which does not help! But through meditation( haha NOT medication but it might help too) and some other skills I am learning to deal with it...

I have suffered multiple losses in my life... the greatest of which was the death if my oldest child 14 years ago, she was 18 when she died unexpectedly from a very rare disease....I believe I coped with all the pain and grief by eating....but looking back the eating never made me feel better....only in the brief moment and then I felt worse and became more unhappy and unhealthy creating a vicious cycle which I must break...

SOOO here I am at the bottom of the mountain ready to climb to the top AGAIN... I am confident this time I will do it. My long term goal is to have 100 pounds off my body by the time I turn 53....My short term goal is to get through this day....and then another...and another...I can do this, I know I can , I just need to remain focussed and start my days here and end my days here reflecting upon my emotional eating and my successes....

Thank you to all who have inspired me on here and who have taken the time to welcome me back "home"...I look forward to making new spark buddies and sharing our healthy 2013 journey of discovery and change!

Darlene AKA Addison's Nana.. :)

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