My journey is not about losing weight, it's about gaining health.
I'm on a journey to a new me, and it's ABOUT TIME!
I'm thinking of the future me, and not the past me.
The present me is helping create the future me.
I will not let myself down!
"Instead of starting over, why not follow through"
"Remember, your thoughts have EVERYTHING to do with your success. Your mind leads your body. "
Rick and Dick Hoyt
I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.
- Bill Cosby, comedian
You should not suffer the past. You should be able to wear it like a loose garment, take it off and let it drop.
— Eva Jessye, American musician and author (1895-1992)
"Worrying is like a rocking chair: it gives you something to do, but it doesn't get you anywhere."
When I was younger I could eat anything. I was healthy and skinny. I'm now 42. I had my first child in 1987. I became very healthy afterwards and was quite thin. I exercised almost every day and felt great. I wanted to be an aerobic instructor (can't help but chuckle about that now), then 26 months after my first child was born I had twins. I tried to work out and keep up my previous healthy life-style, but with working full-time and taking care of three toddlers - it just didn't happen. I eventually let myself go, and gained a little weight. After a couple of years I became depressed. My Dr. put me on anti-depressants. I gained additional weight. My Dr. said it wasn't the pills, but now (years later) he says they did contribute to some of my weight gain.
Over the years, I felt like I lost myself in the anti-depressants. I became numb to some things, I had no motivation like I had before. My time was completely devoted to my family, and ensuring everyone had everything they needed. That is good, but I didn't make time for myself. I made excuses that I didn't have time to exercise, or take care of myself and eat healthier. I would feel guilty if I worked out or spent time away from them. My weight gain continued, and I started to lose all confidence in meeting new people and being in social environments.
Now, it's 2008 and I'm older, fatter, shy, lack confidence, have terrible back pain and I'm wondering what I'm going to do when I grow up. I'm not even sure if I like the career I've established. My children are grown up now. My first child got married last summer and my twins are moving out this Fall. I don't have excuses anymore. I've decided that it's ABOUT TIME I take care of myself and figure out what I want to do for the rest of my life. I'm still young (I think). I'm 42.
Last winter, knowing that I needed to 'get it together', I quit taking anti-depressants. I'm learning to adjust to 'not being numb'. Now it's time to lose some weight and get some confidence back. I think sparkpeople.com will be helpful, and I'm excited to move forward.
Lose 10 lbs - Buy a nice pair of pants and a nice top for work.
My journey is not about losing weight, it's about gaining health. My goals will involve gaining personal victories.
My nickname is L.A. (as in Los Angeles). I have 3 children, a good husband, and a miniature schnauzer.
I love spending time with my family. I love being outdoors, the sunshine, reading, hiking (when it isn't too hot), camping and traveling. My weakness: Diet Cokel
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| current weight: 170.0